Mylifestory ♥

2009-11-11T16:41:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging for the second time today .
Cause i'm superb boring
Currently just wake up .
I sleep back at 11+ ? & wake up at 4.30 .
I'm like one OINKOINK .
Acap text & i reply * okay * without reading his message , yaya message I never reply-ed .
Private number call-ed I never pick up .
I'm sleeping please do not disturd . & now im mad myself .
Part hujan taknak tdoe part panas mau tdoe . Ishks . Nevermind i'll continue my sleep later on .
Da mcm piggypiggy , haha ! Ala I remember baby say this ' you babi DARAT , I babi HUTAN . Babi darat ngn babi hutan , babi hutan lagy pegotor main dngn taik ! ' hahah . I fight w baby because of this manymany times . Awwwwww , I miss all thys ! Baby , cepaaat la keluar . I want hug you , I want kiss you , I want lick you , i want sleep with you , I want play with your hair .
I want you la baaaabybaaaaaaaaabi Hah !
Ok now im talking about baby , mampooooos ~ start la akurh ny mepek .
Layan kan okaaay ? Hmmmmms , im not ready for tomorrow & I must be getting ready by tonight ?
kimaaak ~ tonight means after 8pm . 3 more hours to go . Alamaaaaaaks .
Then now im thynking about what going to happen tomorrow . I want to sleeeeep early & get myself ready once im out of th house . Like what malaay say ' Sedia kan payung sebelom hujan ' .wohooo .
Mampos akurhhh ~ standby .
If baby get P.R.O.B.A.T.I.O.N. What i'll do is , I WILL HUG HIM ! Tight tight . Yeesha !
Ala , baby getting P.R.O.B.A.T.I.O.N. [ * praying haaard * ]
Hmmmms .
Like I say im off to ang mo kio ite first as mak need to take baby stop school-ing letter .
Haissssh ! Ala , baby getting a P.R.O.B.A.T.I.O.N. what , what for naq stop schooling ?
Ok la , now im hungry . Hahah ! I say-ed im like one oinkoink ! Bangooon then mau makan .
Weeeeeee ~ bubbbbye .

LETS COUNTDOWN !
21 more hours , baby ! Here I come .
Imissyou , iloveyou , muaacks .

2009-11-11T09:56:00.002+08:00

Hello .
time check-ed its 9.56 am . kimaaaaaak ~ siang ny !
ok nvm . imma mumy's girl then muust wakeup & dngr katekate mummy . nyerts !
mcm paaaaham , okay ectually i dont know what to post but since im so mendak & i cant run away from blog so i pooost . yay !
from yesterday im rotting at home & today jugak i guess ? -.-
Hmmmmms , currently my mind is thynking about baby's court tomorrow .
My heart like pumping v v v v v v th faast . susah datang ny & aslo my mind is like going round and round and round and round . im worry-ed , im scar-ed , im sick-ed & i dont know . IM THINKING THINGS THAT IS NOT SUSPOSE TO THINKING . im stresssssssssssss !
poja call-ed yesterday she asked me to follow-ed her and mak to baby school to take somethyng .
so yes , i'll be going . After that im off to baby's court . fuuuuuuuh ~
comperm th first thyng i saw baby face to face i'll be *wekwek , sobsob* . haaaish !
i want my baby to get P.R.O.B.A.T.I.O.N please ? insyallah okaaay ? akurh doa anyakanyak .
okay la , i'll update sooooooooooooooon .
bubbye .

2009-11-10T11:15:00.009+08:00

Good morning .
I wake up preety early right today ?
Hah ! Yesyes superb early . Why ? Cause I dont know .
I slept at 3am cause I have been missing baby more after I visit him .
I miss him sososo much . I need him now . Baby court in two days time .
Im praying hard here now . Nak sembayang cannot * girl problem *
so th least I can do is doa banyakbanyak . Insyallah baby dapat probation kaaay ?
Like I say I been sleeping late kan ? Tynking of baby is one thyng & aslo kuda kepang thyngs .
Haisssh . Susah you know ?
Haish . Daddy just dont understand that IM INTO KUDA KEPANG .
Forget it la , mummy now is v v v th bising due to th kuda kepang stuff . Kalau akurh masok senyap senyap nakmu naq salahkan akurh okay ? I ask for permission already IN A GOOD MANNER .Fuck you .
So yea I thynk i'll be rotting at home . Mendak & somemore daddy not working . -.-
mcm siyal , so i'll be hearing their lecturing ill thrusday & im freeeee .
Why ? Cause thrusday im out to baby's court . Fuuuh ! Seram .
So now ectually I wanted to change my blog skin but non attract my eyes .
Semua mcm merepek ajerh. Hmmmms .
Anyway th post below is for my dearest fauziah , I read her post & im touuch .
Hehe ! Iloveyou sweetheart . Muackss .

Here it goes …

Sayang , th day before yesterday we've both have been planning to visit abg right ?
Since we really though that baba not tagging along we have plan of what to talk to abg . Then yesterday baba came home & told us that last min his following .
So yes , we both were so dissapoint-ed . We really want to meet abg .
&& when we reach there you know im schock-ed that baba ectually ask-ed me to go in w him & mak and he even ask-ed you & fazirah to stay outside . Firstly I know ur're mad & jelous at that point of time ,i myself not feeling that comfortable cause th blood sister staying outsyde & th girlfriend who went in .
But you give that chance to me as you know I really really miss abg , sososo much .
You give me th happyness that you should have , you give me th thyng that you really want it to happen that is to visit your beloved brother . Im sorry for yesterday incident & im aslo thankful for what had happen yesterday . You're th best !

Let rewind back how we get closer & closer each daaay .

I remember th first time we contact & ur're scared that abg scold you for contacting me .Then I told you dont worry about abg i'll talk to him slowly.

As time goes by we get nearer & nearer to each other .

We shared secrets , we shared every single thyng together .

Im so happy that you're always there for me .
&& remember you say-ed that if im sad you will be sad too ,

if im happy , you will be happy too .

We'll go through everythyng together .

You're family has been treating me like im one of you .

I dont know how to say thank you , or I even dont know how to repay th kindness .

Th only thyng im would say now is ,

iloveyou sis & I love your family . Muacks .
&& for now , let us pray hard that baby will continue his probation

& getting a lighter sentence . insyallah .

; two more day to baby court . im praying hard .

* ya allah tuhan ku kabul kn la doa ku .

yallah tuhan ku lindungi la kekasih ku , regankan la hukuman nya yallah , tunjuk kn la dia jalan yang benar . amin *

I MISS THIS BOTH ! BUT MOST OF IF I MISS MY BABYBOOOOOOY )":

BABY ! MAKE MY DAY !

2009-11-09T16:11:00.005+08:00

Hey . GUESS WHAT ?
poeple been telling me that i cant visit baby kn ? BUT ectually can ! yay !
i visited baby just now & my heart was like dupdupduop when i when inside th rooooom .
th coversation of me & baby kelakar sia .
First conversation
baby : ASSALAMUALAIKUM.
mak ,abah & yana : WA'ALAIKUMSALAM .
baby : org tunggu mak & baba VISIT mcm tunngu bergangut .
mak : * expalin all *
baby : ohhhhhh . eh b ! you ader mengatal tak ?
yana : hahaha ! taktak =p
baby : maseh leh unguuuu ?
yana : MASEH LA !
[ th conversation between mak baba & baby ]
yana : b , ingat tak last friday ? '
baby : On th 6 kn ? uhuh xia , aku nanges bdh pat dalam . '
hahaha , cute kankan ? taaaau , my babyboy whaaat .
baby : * btol kn rambot dyerh * makmak , org makin hansem kn ? '
mak : ny la anak aku yg aku rindu ..
baby : org buat bdn 3 -4 jam shey beh poji makin kusus kn ? makin sachoook .
beh kn mak , apek pat dlm makin gelap yg org makin putih .
sejok shey tempat sini poji pat tingkat 8 . sejooook .
mak & abah : beh poji sembayang tak ?
baby : poji sembayang la , poji imam tau . haryhary poji doa shey .
tady pon poji baru abes sembayang beh tengah baca buku skaly dorang call ckp ader visitor , terkabul doa poji . alhamdumillah .
mak : amin .
baby : poji da pikir masak2 lau poji keluar naq blaja je , menyesal poji .
mak : baos la kalau mcm tuh
baby : mak , baba , ana eh tak yaya eh yana . ngok namerh u pon i lupa . uh yana , jage diri tau pat luar . '
yana : aik ! lupa namerh i ?
baby : bukan lupa la b cuma taknak ingat ty time lambat .
mak : hahahahah ! ye la .
that was some converstion till th end . ILOVEMY BABYBOY SOMUCH !
hahahaha ! cheychey , aderh circiri jadyk laki akurh , hah !
im too happy la ectually , lepas kn rindu you know .
after visit baby then home straight trus on msnn ! happy siul akuuurh .
haha ! anyway im going for kuda kepang meeting thys web mayb ? ngok uh lau tak malass.
ok la , update sooooooooon .

; MY LOVE FOR BABY IS GROWING & OHH PLS EH , I DONT NED ANY THIRD PARTIE TO REPLACED BABY CAUSE YOU JUST CANT . IM SO INTO MUHD FAUZIE . ILOVEYOU B ! MUACKS .
CEPAT KELUUUAR ! 3 MORE DAYS , DOA BANYAKBANYAK TAU BABBY ? IM AKAN DOA JUGAK . IMISSYOUSOSOSOSOMUUCH ! ILOVEYOUSOSOSOSOMUUUUCH ! MUACKS .

2009-11-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

Its already past midnight & im still not in bed .
i was on th phone w twinny , i miss her ALOT !
then i otf w acap , we're talking about kuda kepang all th way & he say this ' masok kuda kepang i la , ty i bbl ngn your daddy okay ? ' sanggop kan ? hahah ! ngok la how okay ? & he ask me to tag-ed along on thys thrus ngok org mandy mabok so i aslo can get to know them . alamaaak ~
how eh how ? i want to watch 2012 laarh , ishhks . nxt time cannot ke ? koang peh training i trn k ?
heheh !idk myself why hys days im really into thys kind of stuff . you see when i was in town i called poohbear & ask-ed about th kuda kepang thyng then he told me th place & avenue then guess what happen nxt ? i told king about it & from city hall akurh sanggop trn just to watch kuda kepang -.-
king is mad i know but since no choice terpaksa layan akurh . hahah
then acap have been asking me to join his kuda kepang & yuup i make my decision , im joining !
but not now cause ngh pancing mama & ayah . For sure im supporting that gonna be my group sooon all th waay . heh !
will be going for their traning & mayb thys thrus , fuuuh ! mak kaaua , seram saya .
like what twinny say ' kau da pengecot ader hati nak masok kuda kepang ? bodoh naq mampos nye adeq ' hahahah ! thys is what my syster say . kaninabuey .
But for whatever fuck sick reason is , IM STILL JOINING KUDA KEPANG ! ok FULLSTOP .
ok la, i'll update after i visit baby later on okay ? bubbye ! gooodnight .

2009-11-08T19:47:00.003+08:00

I just come baack from kendarat .
penaat ~
so yea , tadyk kendarat mendak . All th waay i've been slacking .
ahlek kendarat straight home . penat & somemore saving energy for tomorrow .
Im out w baby[s] family to visit baby , yaaaay ! doadoa boleh masok okaay ?
my body doesnt feel that well . ny tande nyerk naq D.E.M.A.M ! fuucks .
okaay la im out of words , bubbye .

2009-11-07T21:04:00.003+08:00

I will just run through what happen today . lazy naq updateee

meet king at j.e mrt
Off to bugis
From bugis to marina
Marina go eat
Off to buket gombak , kuda kepang
Home Sweet Home .

some picture's are taken yesterdaaay w roy . (:
Thats all for today , tomorrow kendarat ! bubbye .

;POOOOHBEAR ! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IMY ? YOU NEVER KNW )":

2009-11-07T11:59:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night .
Meet my mimibaby then off to 832 lepak .
roy say thys ' koang trn setakat rokok je kan ? '
ahahhaha ! ish manerh ader , kyterh trh pasal kyterh rindu koang , cheychey ! ahaha -.-
home at around 12.00am + .
thats all for that night .
ayeez ; im sorry that i have to let you go .
SATURDAY !
So im not going to rot at home of course .
like i've say-ed off to town w king , so yuupyuup jadyks .
will be meeting him at 2.30pm at j.e mrt . Thenn off to town ? bugis ? vivo ?
lom plan uhrs , hah ! so yea , saperhsaperh nampak akurh tego okaay ?
Naq siap-ing , bubbye !

2 more daays , baby ! here i come [ doadoa boleh masok kaay ? ]

2009-11-06T21:08:00.003+08:00

I dont know what to post , thys will be th second post for todaay .

Th first post is ectually for baby & ONLY BABY.

now i just came back from looking house . nbcb , malaas sia mau pindah [ -.- ]

hmm , currently chatting w didi & farzanah nonet . heh !

didi is my secondary school friend but saddly he have to school in auusia when we're in secondary 3 i thynk , lupaa uhr anyway so sodeh you know , i kinda rapat with him , haish .

for farzanah at last you're working eh ? goodluck then , heh !

So , im bored now , waiting for my mimibaby then meet her to take my wallet that she bring home . haha ! bocor rasia namerh bapak akurh .. baaah !

tomorrow will be meeting king maybe . Then off to town , maybe la lau dikni tak PAITAU . hahaha ! he told me that he will entertain me his brother tersyg dyerh pat dalam , sweet kan ? tawuuue ! Then on th 15 november i'll be out tooo with him , why ? cause member gaji xiuls ! wohoooo . anyway dont get us wrng okay ? king is baby ' brother ' , baby ask him to takecare of me & i have been reapting this sentence manymany time to make it clear to korangs ! hahahah ! okay la , im out of words .

eh eh eh , before i end kan ? i want to say a BIGBIG THANK YOU TO ,

- mimibaby

- king

- amaliah naughty

- poja [ baby syster ]

thanks for wishing me second mth annyvesary w baby .

&& for my amaliah naughty thanks for th sweet post sayang , iloveyou guys ! muuuuacks .

Thys pic's taken in th car while otw to marsiling , sempat -.-

Theres alot more uhr , but malas mau upload ! haha .

update soon & takecare .

&& HAPPY TWO MONTH TO ME & BABY AGAIN ! ILOVEYOUSOMUCH !

[ im hope you remeber todaay's date , takecare in there baby . imysm )": ]

2009-11-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

ATTENTION ! ; HAPPY TWO MONTH ANNNYVESARY BABY

I remember the last time when my heart was broken

I almost giving up on lifeI gave up trusting

And I gave up on loving

I thought I would rather be alone

Than to be hurt again and again

It was not easy getting to know a new person all over again

And it is even tougher to fall in love

But the next thing we know

It’s time to fell down

To slowly wake up all myself

Picking up all the broken pieces one by one

And the chain goes non stop

Like a curse spelled onto my life

At one point in life

I was lost and insecure with an emptiness and loneliness in my heart

I didn't know where else

I could turn to

I put my sentinel up high

To protect myself for the fear of getting hurt

I was waiting for the pains to subside and

I hid them with my nonchalant smiles

And then along the way,you came by into my life,

It was never too serious for us,because

I was not the only one you love at one point of time

but along the waywe get to know each other

and we're both feeling much stronger

We made promises

And I decided to give my hands to you

You are the first man in my life

I thought of future planning with

You tried to accept for who I am

Even if I have zillions of unreasonable flaws

but you stand certain and willed

because you said loving is to accept the everything

Remember that special night

When all of the stars where shining so bright

We made our first endeavour

To stay togetherto love, to share and to be real honest

but babyon that very first night

It wasn't quite right..

I know it's gonna be tough to be with you

And so I am learning to be tolerant and appreciative

I can no longer pitch the silly tantrums like how

I did last timebecause

I know it takes millions of patienceto be with you

At least at this point of timeI had never felt so strong that

I am loving you so muchand

I was willing to wait for you to wait for the timeyou finally be mineeven if..

it really heartbreaking at many a time no words could tell

but the tears shall elucidate

Thank you baby,for loving who I am

You show me the real colors of love when

I am almost giving up you showered me with your

unlimited love and caresand taught me how to love

at least at very special point of life

I know I have found my missing rib

That has been aching inside my heart all these years

And that we are beautifully blend together

I can never find someone like you

I am beyond words to express how glad

I am to have found someone as great as youand be a part of your life

Being with youI so wanna take care well of you

just hope you would be fine and happy all the timesseeing you smile is all

I wanted to dobecause when you are happy

It really sounds like the birds in the world are singing lullabyand

when you frownmy heart will cry with you

I hope you know

I don't need to tell you everyday

how much you meant me

but within my heartyou were everything to me

my love

imissyousomuch !

iloveyou .

muuuuacks

;Though your not here now , baby i bet you remember todaay's date .

2009-11-05T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hey .

Just reach home lets taalk about just now la okaaay ?

Off to baby's crib , reach around 12.30pm & its rainin heavily , superb heavy .

ask king to take me at bustoop . Thanks eh king sanggop ambek akurh blom mandyk . hah !

So stay at baby crib till mak come back from fetching fazirah .

Then when she reach me & poja eaat , yumyum sedap . i dont know why today im like v v v happy . nyets ! i even talk to mak laughing my ass out xia . around 4 .00pm temankan adeq ipar aku

[ mcm paham ] main roller blade , i join them tooo . I called mimibaby & ask her where she is the meet her . Planning to meet at 5.15pm but when i went up to take my thyngs , mak ask-ed me to eat again . so i did ! Mee goreng , my favourite . Leave th house at 5.00pm , IM LATE , train-ed to woodland at meet my mimibaby .

I DONT KNOW WHY MY MIMIBABY IS SUPERB HYPER TODAY . HAHA !

meet her at boots & shoes then slack at 831 .

Around 7.00pm off to my crib as i ask-ed her to dye my hair . heh !

so she did BUT rambot aku da jadyk mcm aperh xioool !

thys is what she poost at her bloog

' when went to her house, dye for her hairr.play with her hair,pull her hair,comb her hair.

funnnnnyyyy ~ i had fun with her hair !'

Mcm xial ny ppm , ahahah ! but still iloveher .

After she went home aperh agyk kan ? akuuurh online uh . hahaha.

chatted w alot of people today . ahah

why im happy today ? Cause my TWO MONTH ANNYVESARY AGYK 1HOUR ! yay .

haahha ! laterh second post eh ? koang sabaaar .

currently otf w king & mimibaaby , ok bye .

Mimibaby , ingat okaaay betting kyter ? ahhaha !

you know i know . iloveyouSCANDAL

2009-11-05T10:16:00.000+08:00

HEY .
im off to baby's crib . anyrhyng text my hp okaay ?
takecareeee .

2009-11-04T16:07:00.005+08:00

YAY ! New blogskins , carek skin mcm carek aperh xia akurh .
At last i found the skin that is simple & HOT PINK . iloveit !
Thought of meeting awi but i cancel th plan cause th sickness of pemalas da datang .
i cancel th plan of meeting mimi & neesya cause someone coming my house & aslo taak larat naq keluar . no mood [ -.- ]
i have been rotting at home since last week , i went for my kendarat thyng & home straight .
so i chat-ed with pipi ähtöñg , KETOOT ; casperyantaosiblings & T@I T.J.R .
every syngle thyng are settle between me & pipi BUT still im sad .
Cut that okay ?
So i just came back from looking at th house at marsiling , akurh sumpah aku taknak pindaah . pls daddy . Hmmmms , currently chatting with pipi ähtöñg . How sweet he still care kan ? hah ! forget it la , his my past . yesyes past . nyets !
anyway what date is todaay ? 04NOVEMBER2009 , its my second mth breaking up w that idiot , cheebye ! bday akurh siul mintaq break , takkn akurh lupa kan , kncb ! 2 more daays my second mth w baby ! yay ! we made it through , though baby not around on th special day but for sure i know that he remember's . 5 more daays maybe i can hear some news from baby cause mak & abahh visiting him , heh ! Ok la , i will update soon ! Eheh ! wait i forgot to saay thys
POOOHBEAAAR ! IMISSYOUSOMUCH ! YESYES , SOOOOMUUUCH ! )":
thats all , heh ! takecare's .
Below are conversation of my poohbear & me . heh !
pipi ahtong saaay IM HIS BABYGIRL 

Dari kerdip matamu ada cahaya indah
Bidadari bermain di fikiranku
Haruskah terima pertemuan tak pasti
Atau hanya ilusi dan mimpi ngeri
Ku sendiri sepi mengharap kau kembali
Bidadari yang ingin ku temuiInikah balasan kesetiaan hatiku
Atau sememangnya permainan hidupmu
Ku tidak menduga kasih palsu
Kau tinggalkan diriku sepi tanpa dirimu
Kini ku derita kerana mu
Mengenangkan dirimu waktu dulu bersamaku
Ku derita keranamu
Ku tanpa hala tujuInikah suratannya ku begitu
Kau pergi tanpa pesan
Kau aku kehilangan
Haruskah aku menggapaimu
Kembali bersamaku

8 more days , yay ! baby meet you soon .
[ ya'allah tuhan ku selamat kan la kekasihku , ya'allah tuhanku regankan la hukuman nya , ya'allah tunjukkanla dia jalan yang benar ,ya'allah tuhan ku sayangi la dia seperti kau sayang kan hamba mu yang lain ya'allah . ]

2009-11-03T22:35:00.003+08:00

Second post , [ Only for you ]

♥♥♥♥

Thanks for th time , th sweet moments , th care , th love lastly thanks for being apart of me .

but i guess its goodbye . Im going to smile like nothing wrong , talk like everythyng perfect , act like it's all a dream and pretend its not hurting me . I let you go , move on w her . Dont play-ed her like how you did to me , dont hurt her like how you hurt me . Tears are words , my heart cant even say . When thynk back , why do i love you so much when you dont even love me back ? My plan now is to FORGIVE & FORGET . forgive myself for being so stupyde & forget you ever existed .
I remember last day

We were so in love in special way

You made me feel all right

Your love keeps me alive.

But things went wrong for us

Maybe we were not destined to be together

Baby before I let you go

Let me say I love you.

I love you so, that’s why I let go

You are forever in my heart

Baby I miss you, your kisses

But someday I’ll find my way.

Like i've say-ed before , sayang you're just a passerby , you wont stay for long .

You broke my heart but i still love you with all piece .

I dont believe that ectually i do shed tears for you .

takecare . imissyou & iloveyou . muacks !

Thys is my last goodbye , goodbye poohbear )":

yours truly ,

yanasmall ♥

2009-11-03T17:13:00.003+08:00

Hey . Im spechless la ectually , mendaarks & thats th reason why i blog . nyets !

yesterday i went to meet my mimibaby under her blok , before that meet poohbear . suka !

poohbear acoompany me then we both lepak . Spent time with poohbear boleh mati xiol .

hahahhahaa ! around 10.10pm we both left th place , poohbear gtg & me too .

Salam-ed & walk-ed off . [ thanks for th sweet night poohbear ]

Todaay .

whats th date ? 3.11.2009 [ tuesday ]

yay ! 9 more daays i get to meet baby , tapyk pat court .I get to know mak & abah is visiting baby, televisit on monday .but 3 org ajerh . so me & poja cannot masok . sooodehh .

later teman-ing ayah to see house at marsiling . aku taknak pindah la bodooh !

please ? Hmms , okaay la , i'll update soon okaay ? bubbye .

; theres still unspoken words in me .

poohbear , imysm .

[For you]

Jangan pernah katakan bahwa cintamu hanyalah untukku

Karena kini kau telah membaginya

Maafkan jika memang kini harus

kutinggalkan dirimu

Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai

Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu

Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis... membayangkan

Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku

Kau duakan cinta ini . Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis... melepaskan

Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku

Harus slalu kau tahu

Akulah hati yg telah disakiti

2009-11-02T11:15:00.007+08:00

Im not out today . M.A.L.A.S .

akuurh kan pemalaaas .

anyway , hosnestly MY BABYBABI CASPERYANTAO .

i have no moood now , i wont update . naq visit baaaby ! pls cepaaat .

' jauh dimata dekat dihati '

2009-11-01T20:39:00.002+08:00

Hello .
im fuck fuck tired . suumpah .
2 daays straight i've been standing for 8 hours . cheebye .
like i say kendarat at bedok . jauuh kan ?
so hell yea , saiful yg layan kan aku peh mepek daryk tadyk . thanks eh kau ? hahaha .
yang aku pulak lyn dyerh carek kn minah tudung yg lawar & yesyes aderh siul . lawar but too bad saiful tak dapat . dade satu tak cukupp btw lanchawhey pasal org pon gerek eh ? hahaha , shhhhh !
cabootcabot work pasal tak ramai org then penaat . so me & saiful go isap rokok . sempat you know & since he finish-ed at 5.00 then i finished at 5.30 he waited for me . alalalala , cute nye kau apul . baaaah ~took 168 to woodland then saiful stop at tamp pasal naq ngok wayang ngn kawan dyerh . bus-ed all th way to woodland & home sweet home . thats all for today . aku penat ! bye

; Poohbear , imysm . )':
whats love at one sided side ?

2009-11-01T07:49:00.003+08:00

Let shit !
fridaay .
Train-ed all th bishan to meet my manager .
then back to woodland . meet awi at boots & shoes then lepak till 7pm .
At night meet my pooohbear . i miss him okay ? then around 2+am walk-ed off .
thaats all for fridaay .
Saturdaay .
Like i say i will be having my kendarat thyng at toa payoh kan ?
wakeup at around 9+ am , online , chat & siap .
kendarat with idk who buut , i guess i make new friends . ^.^
not only wwith th kendarat , with th catering people tooo & aslo since theres kuda kepang ,
i dont even concentrate on my work . baaaah ~
finish work at 7pm since its raining , waited for 1/2hr for th rain to stop . rabaaaaak .
trained to admiralty meet mimibaby then trained all th way to cck .
Meet munirah & aslo shahid . haha . th first thyng when i saw shahid outside th pizzahut ,
i hug him xial ! ahahahah . rinduuu , then we smoooke & chat . then since he have to continuue his working he gtg with his friend , for me & mimi go makan .
While eating i makeup my mind of somethyng uhr .
Dont need to work as a sales la as im stii young . lagykpoon , banyak gylerh halagan . so yea .
after eating train-ed to woodland then lepak at 832 . guess who i saw ? Dino & his baygirl , Roy , jeremiah ( primaary school friend) , zulmabok & yea , i have lots of fun i tell you .
pat 832 gerek okaay ? hahahaha !

Roy : ' eh mimi, kau tau kyterh dapat ambek A-level math tau . Zul mdm rita ader call kau kn ? '
zul : ' uhuh la xia '
mimi : ' eh gerek pah ? aku nye takde poon '
zul & roy : ' kyterh first batch '
zul : ' tapyk namer ukan camebright ( salah spell & taktau spell ) tauu .'
mimi : ' abeh ? '
zul : ' kpkb '
mimi : ' aperh xia tuh ? '
zul & roy : ' KAU PECAYA KAU BODOH '

hahahahahahhahah ! thats part akurh kekek naq mampos , ketawer non stop xiaks .
after those funi had , me & mimi walk-ed off .
poohbear msg me , so i thought of meeting then forget it . huumph !
ahlek msg poohbear somethyng then talk to mimibaby jap .
Off to lalaland !
today wakeup trus online & update blog .
later off to kendarat again . yay !
tak lamerh lagyk kaki akurh patah . cheebye .
penat xial ! thats all for todaay .
eh eh eh ! guess whaat .
see thys conversatioon .
* miss call from sayang house *
called baack .

Me : ' hello , poja ader ? : '
poja : ' yes ?: '
Me : ' adeq call akak eh : '
Poja : ' uhuh tadyk ,bapak tak kasek keluar uh : '
Me: ' ohhkay takpe maybe akak poon tak jadyk kuar : '
Poja: 'btw tadyk officer abg call ckp da boelh visit : '
Me : ' comperm peh ? hahahhaah ! yay ! bilerh mak nak visit?: '
Poja : ' blom tau , lau mak nak visit nanty poja bilang kak yana: '
Me : ' hahah ! ok , ily , byeeeeeeeee: '

* widewidewide smile on my faceee *
hahahahahah ! beeeeest .
I GET TO VISIT BABY AT LAST !
th first thyng i saw / talk to him comperm i say thys ' BBBBBB ! I RINDU YOU && ILOVEYOU * crying * ' . comperm raabak ~
heeh ! ok la , gtg . naq siaaaaaap . bubbye .

yay ! dapat meet baby . happyk xiaks .

2009-10-30T09:06:00.007+08:00

Morining !

hahah .yesterday meet mimibaby to take my shoes .
wan accompany me , thanks eh ? while walking and talking to him , guess what .
i saw my ex , amirsetan w his brother (s). hahahah ! baru jerh that time talking talking about them .
i dont reconize them la ectually but they lepak there . sunddenly they shout-ed thys " eh hazuwan ! "
so i turn cause they are refearing to wan , they they say thys " eh ! adeqvamp kan ? " hahahah !
go to them salam-ed thne talk kejaaps then i off to take mimibaaby .
But sadd-ly they ask-ed me to lepaak . so yea , after take mimi & buut smoky we go lepaak .
Wan is off fryst since there's somethyng that need to be done so left , Mimi , amir , zulpanda , zulpinky , dice & i forget th rest . ahahahah ! around 11.08pm since mimi schooling th next day which is today we make a move fryst . salam-ed then waalk-ed off . heeh ! i enjoy th night bebeh !
pictures were tken yesterdaay .Da lamerh tak take picture w them , lagylagy ex aku yg paleng TER-BELO !

ex aku paling TERBAIK !

Step cuteee , but da mmg la kan . =p

I dont even know what th hack are they try-ing to do .
hahha !

its ectually 29 october2009 ! slh edit .

i had fun bebeh ! hahaha ! anyway i sleep & i woke up i recived 1 miss call(s) & 4 msg(es) . Terkejot when i receive his miss call . hmms , wakeup then call . he still asleep but got th heart talking to me. after all that onlinee & ngh webcam ngn exboyf . bubbye . (:

; How long must i keep thys feelings away from you ?

you will never be mine booy .

i regret loving you from th start cause i though that feeling's only stay for a moment but ,

i was wrong . th feeling does stay for long . im just try-ing to let that feeling aside & forget about it .

& try-ing my best not to love you even my heart till does .

whatever it is , i still love boyf .

now i realise how much i need my baby .

2009-10-29T10:36:00.007+08:00

14 DAAYS MORE ! YAY ! hehehe .

baaaby , here i comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

Anyway , i thynk im letting everythyng in heart ouut now .

i cant keep it any longer .

IMISSBABYSOOMUCH ! IMISSBABYSOOMUCH ! IMISSBABYSOOMUCH ! IMISSBABYSOOMUCH !IMISSBABYSOOMUCH !IMISSBABYSOOMUCH !

i feel like i wanna go that CRP & shout this " b ! i rindu you , cepat keluaar ! "

haish ! okaay let get thys straight in you guuys mind .

Though i seems to be happy but do i really that happy ?

im juust makinq myself ' that happy' . why ? cause im not . i myself is suffering inside . im noot okay yet . im not ready for thys 12november . i want th love baby is giving me .i want th boody that baby used to hug & smell me , i want th lips that baby used to kiss me , i want th hand i used to hold , i want my baby .

i want my original babyboy . NOR FRIENDS NEITHER BOY FRIENDS .

im thynking , what is my baby doing now ?

da makan ? da minom ? da mandyk ? da kurus ? da buat badan ?

notty tak ? haishhh ! & last of the last , ingat i tak ?

haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !

bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb , cepat keluar )":

Sometimes it hurts when you're not around .

I look everywhere but it seems you're nowhere to be found .

Im lying in bed , I start to wonder and I start to cry .

Missing you is the hardest thing I had to do .

But loving you makes it worth a while . It is in your eyes when you look at me and smile and it is in your touch when you hold me tight . Now I've learned how to put my cellphone aside .

Because theres nothing for me to expect , nothing to see or hide .

Somehow miss your name appearing on its screen . The sweet words that in my ears were never so mean . Wondering how are you doing , what do you do?

Are you also feeling the pain that I bear ? Catching a glimpse at my photo and hugging it tight to show you care ?Are you also crying yourself to sleep ? And holding on to the love we have promised to keep ?Do you also have me in your mind so often while hugging your pillow ?

Now is another lonely day I've to live . I know soon you'll be back , I do believe that .Just always remember how much I am willing to wait for your sweet return . This is just another trial from which we have to learn . I'll continue praying that soon I could hug you really tight .

I'll cherish the love you gave .

ya allah tuhan ku , lindungilah kekasih ku yang aku sayangi yallah . tunjuk kan dia ke jalan yg benar . Maafkan la segala dosadosa dia yallah . ringankan la hukuman dia yallah .

sayangi lah dia seperti kau sayang kan hamba mu yang lain .

amin .

; you're th last i think before i went to sleep & the first i think of when i wake up in th morning .

& i shed tears every sec when i thynk of you .

ineedyou , imissyou so much & iloveyou baby .

________________________________________________________________________

lets talk aboout todaay .

waakeup online trus , chaat with nanasayang , webcam w her .

on the fon w pipi . then kemas ruumah .

plan-ed to meet wan & roy at RC at 3.15pm but since tertdo , meet them at 3.35 pm .

sorry lambat . chitchat & all till 6pm then off homeee .

ngh lepak king text me say he just came back from work . chey ! hahaha .

da working boy la dyerh . hehe ! anyway , dont get me wrng k ?

akurh rapat ngn king cause baby ask him to takecare of me . so yea.

we keeeeeep in touch ! & thanks king for trust-ing me (:

meet & lepak soon k ? & gaji jangan lupa belanja . yay ! hahaha .

i saw kak quzimahhh , member kene sore eyes ! cute . baaah ~

Online msn then ingat naq chat w _ _ _ _ , then nampak personal message dyerh trus tak jadyk .

& i cancel th plan of meeting todaay . hmms . forget it .

i still have my baaby boy what . (: chaat-ed w ijan & webcam w nanasayang

ijan ; thanks for th advise yerh & yerh la , namerh panjang yana sweet ? hahah !

okok , meet soon dearest ! ohhyarh , awi text me then we otf he say he demam , alalalala ! sodeh nyerk .mamam ubaat ok ex boyfriend ? && yay ! meet dyerh besook .

i miss that ex of mine sososo mucch . ex akurh mase sec 1 siul !

susah datang you knoow ? nyet ! anywaay , starts workinq tomorrow .

so yea , meeting neesyababy at boots & shoes then siap , off to woork .

seramseram sejook . but im tryin to be independent . ahahahah !* pecaaaaah . *

hahahaha ! Sunday will be my official working . alamak . takpe la , try my v v best . insyallah

then , maybe they sending me off to expo . peh jauhh . cheeeebye tol la , but nemind .

daeryk aku ddk umah kan ? tol tak tol ? ckp tak btol ! hhhaha .

ok merepek la ny paart . i cant visit baby's family thys week . sedeh .i miss them sososo much la xio . i miss fazirah , i miss fauzia , i miss farid , i miss mak & baba .

but th person i miss th most is FAUZIE ( my babybabihutan ) .

hmms , aperh lagyk naq type . ooouhhkay .

i will be busy from friday onwards .

friday working , saturday kendarat at toa payooh , then sunday mayb kendarat atau working .

then monday lau free go baby crb then tuesday working & taktau when off .

walau , penat dooooooooooh .

thats all for today . post when tak busy .

bare with me my blog will be dead . sorry !

may peace upoon you .

2009-10-28T19:16:00.005+08:00

i miss that POOH BEAR of mine .
pipibaby text me & say thys " YANA ! i miss you "
awww , so sweet .
then i relpy-ed " i miss you too sayanq ! "
hehhehehee .

anywaay , thys will be secoond post for today .
yay ! thanks to wan & i dont know you name for the daay .
i loove it . wan , thanks for the treat okaay ? hahaha !
ohhya , lets talk aboout today .
chat & chat & chat till 4pm ? then mandyk . meet wan & his frend at north plaza lepak .
then walk to RC lepak there . laughing all th way you know ? hahaha !
thats all for todaay . heheh !

DEEFLY IM SORRY .

A GIRL LIKE ME DONT DESERVE A GUY LIKE YOU .

YOU DESERVE BETTER GIRL .

I'LL BE HAPPY FOR YOU THOUGH YOU KNOW THAT THERES

STILL LOVE FOR YOU .

MOVE ON WITHOUT ME , GO ON W OTHERS .

IMISSYOU BOY . TAKECARES .

; 16 more daays i get to meet baby ! yay !

2009-10-28T07:16:00.007+08:00

im noot putting my bloq privatee .

BUT if there's any spammers kan ? staight awaay , no more public blog .

get it ? Two day ago & yestersdaay is superb wierd, i swear . why ?

cause its weird . let staart .on moonday around 10pm , i was otf with neesya & we talk .

kyterh dua je tauu uhr . Then while talkinq , we talk aboout r'ship .including ex . then thys one paart i ay-ed thys .' ala ____ takkn lamerh uhr ngn ppm ppm dyerh , taq kn sampai 3 buulan ty break , pas tuhh ty text adeq ' , nessya laugh at say-ed ' xiak uhr adeq '

then we was talking about kinq & suddenly her hp beep & mine too . guess who mcg ?

king ! haha , mcm tautau ajerh eh kauu ? haha . then we called him .

ngh boal then my hp beep again , thys time i laugh & laugh & laugh .

i told neesya thys ' panjang umur dyerh ' , guess again who msg ? Deefly !

then neesya started laughing so i jooin her la .

while talking me & king start the talk fryst since neesya maaseh ' malumalu kuchinq '

all the waay she was laughing . so yes , i talked to kinq & we made thys one merepek ' bajuu '

for me , him & neesya . Naq tau anmerh aper ? ' wansuaay boss atasan yakini kia wa'alaikumsalam '

hahahhahaha ! we laugh non-stop . he get the from from out own name . for mine is .yana , he took 'YA' for him 'KI' . & for neesya he took 'NI' . then we starts ouur merepek agaain . aku sumpah merepek maha merepek . talktalk then aroound 1am like thaat , i already went to my lalaland .

the next morning . ( wednesdaaaay )

In the moorning deefly (ex) call-ed me .

Taalk to him for a while , then he talk to mama & puut doown .

Then since mama assk me to go kedai , so i didd .

Guest what , i go pasar buy ikan . nyet !

Reaach homme chat-ed w ayanrascaal , then suddenly myy mind remembering thys num 9227 ....... then reminnds me of ayeez (ex) so yea , beh i try-ed calling & its him ! haha . he told me his hp was lost all h, he try-ed contacting me but cant get through , mcm co-incident kan ? hhahah .

. Puut down the fon then webcam with him , da lamerh taq nampak . Rindu adeq kankan ? ahah !

Siap then meet neesya nonet , i miss her soosooosoo much , why ? it been long time since we meet kan neesya kan ? Train-ed all th way to boonlay . We continue the talk of yesterday night & we're talking about zulpanda & the rest . theres one part inside the train , we're laughing or ass out , kan bapak kyterh pe train then suddenly neesya beat me & * high voicee* ' Adeq ! neesya lupa belyk nose stud * pokking her noose * ' i was lauughing & laughing because of her face , w the full of expression siaa . Th people all give ius their face , we ignore . Buustar eh ? hahah !

then i saay ' juroong point aderh ' hahahahah .

Reach jurong east & we chaanged train . then when at lakeside neesya ask-ed me thys , ' eh ! asal kyterh taaq trn jurong , asal naek train lagy ? ' hahahah ! peh slow kan dyerh ? then i didn't answer her cause i laughlaughlaugh ! hahaha .

do reach jurong took bus 241 & again inside the buus she say-ed thys ' Adeq ! neesya lupa belyk nose stud * pokking her noose * . i was like , ' Ah'ah la ! hahahhahaha ' she aslo strted laughing .

Reach juying sec meet baby sister , king , lan & bob . Lepak at under baby block , then off to his crib kejap . Booal & makan , then off to lepak back with them .

Meet nora dpn juying then lepak & stuff . Sent fauziah baack then bus-es down to boonlay & trained to woodland as nora to commonwealth .

At woodlands tereserempak with zulpanda , hahahaha ! panjang umur . lepak with him , mickey & his frends taak kenal uhr .

thys pic was at civic , ngh lepaak (:

neesya nonet .

Zulpanda

arouund 7.30 off back hoome .
Reach home camwhore w neesya & adeq . Lepaak & sent neesya to th bustop . After all that , meet pipibaaaabylove ! yay ! at last eh dapat meet ? Lepak at fushan garden & only th booth of us , sweet ooh sweet .so yea , through out that night we spend th time . Pipi & Yana je taauu , jng naq sebok .so yea ! i enjooy my daay . (: Pictures will do the talkinq . For the pictures all of them are with neesya , will get from her a.s.a.p . My pictuure& pipi , akuurh taq perlu koang peh comment . Only a few are poost , yq laen ? taakleh ! kirim saalam sudaah . privacy . hahah ! Enjooy .

My sunshinee .

Cute kan ? haha ! kate pipi & yana peh .

thaat very night
( My all time favourite picture )

; When i thynk baack ,

why must i be jelous of you & others if really im not into you ?

why must i be jeloous if you're texting her all night ?

why must i be jelous if she post-ed aboout you at her blog ?

why muust i spare my time meeting you as im tired ?

why am i smiling all th way when im with you ?

yes i admit i used to have a crush on you i the past .

but the feeling just fade like thaat . & Now im happy when we contact-ed back , im happy that we get to meet up yesterdaay .But now i just wanna know , my my ind or my hear is try'in to saay .

cause i myself dont even knoow .

Does th feeling coming baack again ? hmmms .

but what ever it is i believe that you wont stay for long , you may go anytime .

afterall you are just a passer by in my life boy .

thats all for todaay , i will updatee soon (:

takecare readers ! bubbye .

may peace upon you .

The always a sadness behindmy smile

2009-10-26T20:22:00.005+08:00

HELLO BLOGGY !
ectually i dont know whaats up , but i fine myself happy today .
why ? pasal 17 more daays to meet baby & to pray hard nth will happen .
as for tomorrow plan .
- Meet fauziahsayang at juying sec & off to baby's crib .
- Meet kinq & baby's brother , lepak .
thaats all . tomorrow will be spending time with baby's syde .
so hoppinq that tomorrow will turn out great (:
i have been contactinq with king , miimii & baby's family .
they make my daay , they make sure that im okaay EVERY SINGLE DAY .
see how great i have them by me .
ok uuhr , i doont want to update that muuch .
i gtg ! byebye .

; Baaby , cepat keluar dooh . i rindu you .
how happy i am , how great i can be deep down my heart , i need my babyboooy .
imisshim alooot .

thys pictures are taken just now , ngh mendaark siaa . haha !

its truue . believe me okaay ? haha !
try me (:

read that ? his oonly babygirl !

p/s ; i miss takinq pictures w baaby .

2009-10-26T09:48:00.003+08:00

Thys will be the post about me & baby .
here it gooes .

04 september 2009 .
Remember thys daay syq ? it was my birthdaay & that was the firt time we met

i was feelinq down at that pooint of time . you was with cicak , yaya & junjun .

waitinq for me at paya lebaar mrt , i was late .

I came & run to yaya , hugging her tightly . I dont even talk-ed to you as i dont even know you .

after a few min , i was talkinq to cicak aboout school stuff then i get to know taht you're schooling in ite amk . i quickly go to you & ask you thys " School ite amk eh ? kenaal dee ? knl neeran , orq angel dyerh miok ? you answer me & you say-ed thys " taak kenal uhr " . then i juust continue talkinq to cicak & the rest . arouund 10 minuutes we walk-ed off . walk-ed to the coffee shop to buka w my friends & myy mum was there tooo . somethyng happen & you guys walked off , left me & my mama . hmmms . i thought that i coould meet you back but you guys say-ed that we'll meet later so instead i jooin my friends . Around 8+ , yaya called me sayinq that you guys are going off . so yea , i sayed okay without meetinq . Remember right thys daay ? hehe .

05september2009

I waake up & called yaya in the moorning .

the first thynq she say-ed " adeeeeeeeeeq ! aderrh orq naq knl knl w you . "

i ask-ed whoo ,

she replyed " kawan cicaak la smlm "

i say-ed " ooooohhhhhhh ! hahaha , okaay . da syngle peeh "

then they ask-ed me to text you . so i text .

yana : " hello . cicak suruh msg "

caser : " ohh hello ! hahah , ngh uatperh ? "

yana : " paat umaah , then you ? "

casper : " ngh lepaak "

( && manymany mooore )

we started to contact but at that point of time im not in a mooood to answer any questioon about relationship & you're talkinq abouut it . so i get angry & text you back late . soorry .

i text you in the evening to midnight & we on the fooon . its like been long since we know each other . Right ? We confrence for a while , cicak & yaya ask me thys " koang dua da mataey peh siuul ? "

hahahaha ! i say " NO ! " we all laugh . after they puut doown , left we booth & we talk about ourself .

from 10pm - 5.30am , hahah ! then i puut down cause i need to do somethyng & you ask-ed me to called you back . After im doone , i call but theres no one who pick up & you're asleep . heheh ! CUTE . before we put down we bet thys " saperh bangoon lambat kene hutang kiss "

& i was the one , sooodeh ! okay. ( thats was the secoond daay )

06september2009 , (ILOVETHISDATE !)

i waake up late after a long talk with you . hahahahha !

& whn i wakeupi get miss call(s) from you , so i text . & youu reply-ed me thys

" heheh ! you bangoon lambat , you own i kiss "

remember baaby ? so i say , "yaarh i taau la " & there we goo mcging again .

while cging , you suddenly as me thys

Casper : " you , kalau i mintaq stead you naq ? "

Yana : " errms , asal you tanyerh eh ? enta . "

Casper : " okaay , sekarang i tanyerh . b , naq stead ngn you booleh ? "

i replyed late cauuse i called cicak & toold him about thys .

talk , ask him advise & i replyed you .

Yana : "ouuhkay , boleh "

so that day YOU ARE MINE & IM YOURS !

07september2009 .

i met you infront of your school as i was with my babygirl , mimispade .

you told me that you know her & stuuff . so yea , i lepak with you , cicak & miimii at yio chu kang .

thats was the first time i get to hold you & huq you ! aroound 4 plus we alk-ed off . you hold my hand while we're going to the mrt & trained all the way to woodland , then you ? all the way to boonlay .

&& guess what THE FIRST KISS WAS INSIDE THE TRAIN . heeh .

then i stop-ed at admiralty salam-ed & kiss . it was a great daaaay .

anywaay i forget wheen , you & i talked about somethynq then we talk-ed out the truth that is .

the fyrst time when i was with you , i doont even love you . i accept-ed your " stead " cause i wanna move on & forget aboout ______ .

then i get to know you too did the same , your plan was to " Buat pakai & throw me awaay . "

so we both dont love eacch other .

As time past , my love for you grow & your love for me is grows too .

so my plan of makinq used of you had change , i just loving you more & eaach daay .

your love grows for me toooooooo . So our plan , da gooone . sweet right ? but at the same time funny .

From NO LOVE-LOVE ?

our relationship hits 1 month , yay ! we maade it .

we when through up & downs , thick & thins .

People try to bring us apart & they just caant . our love is superb strng .

i remember-ed from sunday , tues - thrus juust before you court date .

i was with you all the waay spending as much time as possible . )":

i miss you . i cryed when you're goone .

but like i saay , im not scared cause i have my confidents in waitinq .

so baby listen here . setia menanti kepulangaan you .

remember you say-ed thys before you go .

" ingat jauh dimata dekat dihati & Jangan uat bende yq i taq suka "

remember all that back , it makes me burst intoo tears .

; 17 moore daays & i get to meet baaby . yay !

2009-10-25T22:01:00.002+08:00

Sorry no picture eh naary , hahah ! okaay let starts .
Todaay was fine .
Kendarat w zyzybaby & the others .
saw my 2 yeaars ago ex , awi . riindu maha rindu dooh ! we exchange numberhh .
so yea , we contact baack .
Meet mimibaaby then meet ju lepak & home sweet homee .

; can i qo infront of CRP & shout i miss baby alot ?
haissssh ! baaby , i need you noow . )":

2009-10-24T12:49:00.005+08:00

im juust wonderinq how lonq muust i put a fake smile on me ?

ectually my mind is blank for noow . hmm , im missinq baby . but i myself sick & tired of reaptinq the same thyng again & again. why ? ala akurh ckp step baby akurh boleh dngr je . hmm .buut i bet he know that imisshimsomuuch ! kinq told me thaat everythyng change .
casper & apek not arouund . brother & budak baby keep askinq me to trn jurong . lepak cause sunyi . baby sister askinq me to qo her crib . haishhh ! firstly not that i dont one to la . the reason is because
WHEN THE FIRST THING IM IN THE BUS IM GONA THYNK OF BABY
WHY ? CAUSE BABY ALWAYS TOOK BUS WITH ME TO HIS CRIB .
SECONDLY IF REACH HIS HOUSE HE COMFERM ASK ME TO EAT & NOW ? &

HE WILL EAT WITH ME ! NOW , WHO EAT WITH ME ?
THRIDLY LEPAK ? W/O BABY ? WHO'S GOING TO ENTERTAIN ME ?
KING , OK ! BUT I NEED BABY ! WHO AM I GOING TO HUQ WHEN IM GOING HOME ?

WHO IS SENDING ME TO THE BUSTOP ? WHO WILL RUN TO ME WHEN HE SCORE ? WHO WILL SAY THYS " NI STRIKER BU " HAISH ! NO ONE OOOOKAY ?
so get it why my heart doesnt one to go ? haish .
but i have to . i have to be stronng .

baby pls , be baack !

thanks my dearest baaby's for always beinq there .
talk to cicaak yesterday he make me smyle for mooment .thanks !
thanks to hunnynonino for listeninq to my story's & ectuaalt we do ahve the same story's kn ?
thanks to mimibaby for the advise .
thanks to kinq who took care of me , dgnr ckp casper eh ? heeh ! anyway , thanks for being there la okaay ? like aperh kau ckp , kau ader aku , aku ader kau . tol taq tol ?
ingat , aku ikt kau , kau ikt aku . Wansuey gina sis_bro kia !
hahahaha !
thanks to baby's family who always there for me . lagyklagyk poja , thanks baby . iloveyou .

TO MY DEAREST ADEQ .

I understands you & you do too right ? like whaat i say ,

" you have me & i have you " remember ? haish .

be strng kay ? iloveyouu .

12nov , muust huq huq ! we stick together .

i will update soon ! bubye .

YOU LEAVE ME BREATHLESS BABY .

2009-10-23T20:25:00.004+08:00

someone ask-ed me if i misses you .
i didnt answer . i juust close my eyes & walk-ed away .
then i whispered , SO MUCH .then my tears starts to droop .
i say-ed it ouut . I MISS MY BABYBOY SO MUUCH !

if only you know hoow much im sufferinq now .
if only you know how mucch i misses you .
i miss you every second .
i waant huq you on 12 november but i cant , mayb ?
i hope you're not in .
i hope you will alwaays be here for me . i need you babyboy .
people tellinq me to be stronq but i juust cant .
people try's their best makinq me smile buut they just cant .
i just need you now .
3 weeks ? i cannt feel you , i cant kiss you , i cant hear you .
baaaby ! i can no longer staay thys waay .
come back fast syq . as fast as you caan .
im out here waitinq .
some ask-ed me to move on & i say-ed .
" NO ! I WILL STILL WAIT "
some ask-ed me to have fuun .i reply-ed .
" BABY IS THE ONLY ONE WHO COULD MAKE ME SMILE "
no one knowns how much you have let me love you .
no one knows how th pain in me noow .
i need th huq that you gave me .
i need th kiss that you always give me when im maad & im saad .
i want to shout out load & let out hear how much i misses you baby .
i need you to know thaat , im just here lonely w/o you .
HONESTLY BABY , IM JUST NOT READY TO LET YOU GO .
BUT ITS TOO LATE .
im praying haard now thaat you wont go for lonq .
im praying hard that we'll last .
im prayinq hard that you will change .
im praying hard that you will be gettinq probatioon .
im praying hard that you will get lighter sentence's .
BABY ! I NEED YOU NOW .

2009-10-23T10:17:00.004+08:00

I MISS BABY ! I MISS BABY ! I MISS BABY ! I MISS BABY ! I MISS BABY !

i get to meet baby on 12 november .

lamer kankan ? haisssh ! i cant sleep & i have not eaten for 1daay since i get to know abouut baby court . i sleep early at 6.00pm - 2.00am . i caant sleep back tynking of baby .

i have not been picking up calls & i dont have that energy to talk to others or even the mood to otf .

why ? cause i need baby noow ! people been telling me to be strong , buut i just cant . im too weak .

3 week withoout baby . haish ! i dream about baby , my teears drop .

im not in the mood to go anywhere for now .i will be rotting at home . till i thynk im reaady to be out without baby .maybe next week then i'll be ouut . sorry ehh koangs !

anywaay , sorry for postinq anout baby thys while .thys is the only place for me to let out everythyng .

lau mendaak , aku tak perlu kooang pat sini .

visiting baby's family next week ! ilovethem muuuch !

thaats all bye .

thanks to my mimibaaby , amaliah naughty , kinq , lastly

BABY'S FAMILY .

thys 4 are alwaays there for me .

Aku sayang koang kaays ?

B ! IMISSYOUIMISSYOUIMISSYOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH !

PLS COME BAACK !

ILOVEYOU ! I MEANT IT .

2009-10-22T14:56:00.003+08:00

The last pic with boyf )":

i have no mood to post , my tears doesnt seems to stop .
the only thyng now is , I WANT MEET BABY ! I WANT HUG HIM ! I WANT KISS HIM !
3 week ? haish! praying hard for you syq .
my tears doesnt stop rolling . i need someone now .
i need my mimibaby & amaliah naughty . nownownow .
baby not here anymoore .
imyimyimyimy .
the last thyng was only , i get to touch his hand .
baaaaaaaabbbbbbbbby ! pls , be back soon ! .
iloooveyou . i swear i do .
i'll wait , as promise !
Only god knows how muuch im sufferinq now . )":

waiting for 12 november 2009 & i can meet baby again .

; pls leave your email cause by tomorrow my bloq is privatee .

im not in a mood . bubbye .

Im reaady .

2009-10-21T09:18:00.018+08:00

Will remain in heart always . iloveyou .

Daays flies so fast & its time .
baby , tell me noow , is it true you are going awaay ?days ? weeks ? moonths ? years ?
pray hard ok syq that you wont go for long .i'll pray hard for you too baby ,
not only me everyone will too pray hard for you .
i have to face everythyng that is coming & making us be far apart .but b ,
thys is only for a while kan ? you'll be back right syq ?
you wont like be leaving me alone kan b kn ? )":
i have to face that you go infront of me . cry ?
im sorry if i drop , im sorry if you saw my tears,im sorry if i cry before you go .
im sorry if i will cry when i receive your last hug & kiss .what can i do nxt ?
nth b .my tears wont bring you bck .
i will miss those nights calls . i will miss your funny faces .i will miss WEBCAM with you .
i will miss the times at east coast park .i will miss you irritatinq faces .i will miss those morning calls
i will miss those tights huqs of your's .i will miss talking otf& you fall asleep .
i will miss makinq lovebit at you . i will miss hugging when your prespirinq
i will miss those long kiss of your's . i will miss the way you scold me , the way we fought .
i will miss the way you call me babi daarat . i will miss the way i call you babi hutan
i will miss those outs w you . i will miss those mcq-es of jokes .
i will miss those pictures w you . i will miss happyness w you . i will miss those ride's of bikes .
i will miss you calling yourself cute , sachok and ect . i will miss looking at you playing football
i will miss the hug & kiss that you give me when im sweating .
i will miss the thing that happen in your room * you know , i know *
i will miss the smell of you ! i will miss your body that hug me whenever im feeling down .
i will miss the way you scold others when they irritated me or did somethinq bad to me .
i will miss those 'slaps ' . i will miss when you say thys , namerrh i "SW" namerh you "IT" together kn SWIT ! i will miss those comments when you read my blog .
i will miss you say this ' diam kau babi darat ! ' i will miss you complaning to your mum about us .
I WILL MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU & I
i will stay strnq even i cant , i will remember every syngle thing that you allowed me to do or not to do ,
i will makesure everythinq fine between us , i will make sure we aint gona b apart ,
sayanq , i will make sure that our love wont fade , we will go far k syq ?i'll visit you soon , yes soooooooon . iloveyou b ! soosoosoosoo much . )":
everythyng happen has it's own reasoon . pls take good care of yourself syq,
i will take good care of mine too .i promise keep in touch w your family aye ? i swear , i promise i will wait ! trust me b , pls syq . im typing thys w the countless tearsdropping .
if thys really the last time you're going to read my blog .
baby , promise is a promise , swear is a swear i'll wait . thaat is a promise & a swear from me to you .
i syq you & only you . get it in you HEAD ! jauh di mata dekat di hati syq .
ohh ya , call me soon b ! must call ok syq ? 'll be waiting .
btw we aint celebrating our two month together . so let me wish you in advance bby .
HAPPY 2MONTH ANNYVESARY SYG ! * in advanceee *
may god bless our relationship alright ?may we last , last till internity . sayanq you sangatsangat b !
before i end thys post even i dont want it to end ,sayang , do takecares , jnq uat keje bodoh pat dlm tawue b .dont make me worry & sad by hearing stories bout u k ?
you know i want you to end everything fast so that we can spent time together .
you aslo want that kan ? so make sure everything go on fast & i'll go on with the flow .& one more thing never ask me to move on w others syq cause you know that i love you so much & only you .
never ask for any breakup's when you're INSIDE OR EVEN OUTSIDE , remember that is what you promise me . i will wait for you no matter how long it takes ! get it straight in your head baby , dont ever get it out !lastly , i need you , i want you , i miss you && of course my hearts wont stop loving you fauzie.
sayanq . ILOVEYOU SO MUCH !MUACKS !!

)": )": )": )": )": )": )": )": )": )":)":)":)":)":)":)":
* my tears wont be able to stoop everything , i will make myself superb busy after thys to make time flies faast *

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Samerh court , same date , same time & same KEPALE BATUUUU .

knknkn ? hahaha . just wanna wish you all the best .

da ready eh ? Hmmms , so yea . Meet preety soon . (:

takecaree .

2009-10-20T19:39:00.002+08:00

Todaay , get to meet boyf ! * happyhappy *
meet him at yck , then train-ed to boonlay , bus-ed down to his crib .
reach salam-ed & stuff .
spent time w boyf , rindu tautau .
around 4.50pm greak as ayah wait for me at boonlay mrt .
thaats all for today , not much kan ? but i did enjoy myself . yea !
hahahaha !

Im ready for thys cominq thrusdaay cause i know theres always a reason for somethyng thaat happens .
pls baby believe me , i will wait .

2009-10-19T19:34:00.002+08:00

This will be my secoond post .
okaays , after bloqhoppinq . i read thys one bloq .
even i dont know her somekind i understands her .
after readinq thys part of her bloq , it makes me feel .
ohmygod , how am i goinq to face all thys all by my own . haishhh
" But I cried the most. I cried as if there are no other days for me to empty my tears. I couldn’t bottle up my feelings any longer. I waited for this day for 3 weeks. 3 weeks I’ve lived my life without him and then when I got to see him today, I let out everything that has been kept inside. I miss Dee. I miss Dee so much. I wanted to hug that guy there, standing just right in front of me but we were separated by 3 policemen. 3 policemen are able to keep us apart. How disappointing!"
sedeh kaans ? yup i knows .
haisssh ! if she's sufferinq then me ?
of course yes kan . but if she can be strng why cant i ? hmms .
i hope i'll be stronger than thys . )":

2009-10-19T08:33:00.012+08:00

the best i everh haad ?

miimiibaaby

the picture tells everythinq .

Fill it baaby

Saturdaay .
went escape theme paark .
great time i have even somekind it sucks , hmm . only mimibaby knows .
Saw nuramira , arygylerh , hafiz , hafiz ciner & more buut lupa namerh .
then off home .
Suundaay .
kendarat at bedok w zyzybaby , shashachiotet , aisyah & the rest .
lamerh aku taq kendarat datanq ahlek xiakxiak . No harapan !
Zyzy knowns how tired i am . hahaha !
ohhya , budaak dapor kacau but i dont even smile at them .
believe me ?
kyn saays thys " why you doont want to entertain them ? "
then i reply-ed " got booyfriend cannot uh ! must stick to one "
hahahah ! believe ? tak believe kau peh pasaal !
after work sanggop you know i meet boyf at east coast with his brother & brother's .
penat siul aku jalan ! but syq peh pasal & naq umpe boyf (:
lepak then off homee .
Mondaay
i change my blogskin , my tagboard , my url . so yea , after 22nd oct i will not me updatinq that muuch & aslo i will make my bloq privatee . taak payah tawue kenaperh okaays ? jng sebok . only few peoply , orq tertentu tawuee , orq tak tertentu tak payah tawue . im noot out today , why ? paal malas ! hahaha . ayah not workinq must stay at home . anywaay , im not usinq my line number ANYMORE ! naq creek aku ? pandaipandai careek . hahah ! ok , wont be passinq thys number around .

to family ;
Sorry if i say thys , somekind i hate you guuys thhys daays !
why ? cause you dont treat me lyke how i used to .
kau naq besar kan adeq ? go ahead okaays ? i dont care .
im biq enough ! & kau expect aku buat aperh eh ? takde papaerh la whey .
hmms . you dont respect me , sorry aku poon takkn respect koang !
&& lastly , I NEED THAT FREEDOM !
friends ;
aku lupa koang ? xiakxiak , i dont eh !
aperh kuranq peh maksood boal gituk nqn aku uh ?
lpas gado tuh cntct pon takde eh ?
part kau mintaq tlng, aku tlng .
ohhh mcm ni eh , ssh carek , senang lepas ? pukimak uuuuhr !
daarhs uhr , listen hereee
i know which & which to be with and to remember ! peragai naqmu xiak .
boleh ? Hmmms .
yes , akurh besar kan mataey aku , so ? aderh ssh kan kurang ? kurang pun ader mataey peh !
aku kuar ngn kurang jadyk lampost paah ?! peragai nakmu mcm budakbudak uh .
aku nak mataey gnn saperhsaperh ssh kan kuranq ? ader kacau hidup kuranq ? takde kn !
Ehhys , da la ouuhkay , i dont entertain merepek-ness . naq ckp aku besar kn mataey , ckp okaay ?
ONLY TWINNY UNDERSTANDS THE SITUATION NOW )":
i just miss the two of you . twinny & ianblck ONLY

pompuan sundaals;
kau jng mcm xial paat sinik , aku mcq kau ckp aku fana .
aku call kau boal taakde care . aderh hati bbl nqn mataey aku ' i ,u ' tau malu taq ?
aku boal stgh jalan asal letak ey ? malas naq lyn BUDAK KECIK ? haha .
penaah rasa tangan aku ? da perampas da satu , takde care da satu .
umur kau 21 aku tkt ? hhahahah ! lu buat kekek la minaah !
kyterh nqok , jauh mana kau bleh pegykk !
takkn jauh kay girl ?

3 more daays , im not ready at all .

but maybe soon ? insyallah , hoppinq for the best kaays ?

baby dont qo for long , i caant surviveee .

iloveyou .

2009-10-17T13:41:00.002+08:00

Today post , not much la .
let post somethinq for yesterday niqht .
i was otf w boyf yesterday , as usual la kan laugh & stuff .
then suddenly kan , boyf senyap gyler . get to know dyerh tdoe ? haha
naq see what i chat w his adeq ? kekek la .

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abang baring dgn phone..
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tak !
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die tdo ??klw tido asl die pegang phone .??
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paasal tertdo ! hhahahhahahha. urh dyerh kol akak aleek .
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da kejot .. die taknak bangon ...die klw da tido .. die tak leh bangaon nnti die tendang .. sket ah .. die tido mcm org tak leh bngon nye .

kekek kan ? hahah ! boyf called back & he told me that naq sleep hahha . aperh lagyk aku pon tdoe .
As for todaay im out w my sayanq . mimibaaby , mama & adeq !
hahha , mimi kita on date lagyk eh ? da two week kankan ? tau . sweet siul . baaah ~
off to escape theme paark . then mayb nxt few week again to escape w poja & nora ( boyf adeq & cousin's ) .
Hmmms , thaats all for today !
Enjoy . takecares !

2009-10-16T22:09:00.004+08:00

i dont work , you guys must be thinking , why kan ?
cause boyf more important . naq cakap akurh mepek ? i doont care .
lets talk aboout yesterday ,
i went work , ronbinson ochard road . boyf get mad w me cause its in town & he doesnt allowed me to work there . hmms . ok cuut that , work from 2pm - 10pm . penat ? tak sangat la , serve customer ? okay la .
the job kinda easy . heeh ! i made it through that one daay w/o any help . i manage to do it all on my own . people text me ? sorry tak reply buusy ! haha . ahlek ayah fetchh me , so tak la penat sangat kann ?
reach home otf w boyf the sleep .
mimibaby , thanks eh for your help talkinq to my manager . iloveyou .
ok then as for today , MEET BABY ! at last okay ? i miss him like fuckfuck ass !
Meet boyf at his crib but his not there , while waitinq for him to reach home , watch high school musocal w poja & nora . kekek siuul ! haha .
boyf reach home then he siap while me ? go dapor . inqat naq help theen boyf ask ikot . no choice lor .
nxt time je la . haishh !
teman baoy as usual play bola till 8+ , then lepak jaap . kecooh uhr nary eh eh eh ? ahha !
9+ geraak . when otw home boyf is superb sweet i tell you . angin aperh pon akurh taktau . ahaha !
thys is what boyf saay .
boyf : kinq ngn yaya aku namerh kan koang , king aku namer kan PE , yaya aku namer kan CAH .
so togther PECAH !
untuk aku nqn yana , akurh SW , yana , IT , so together SWIT !
kecooh kan ? ahhaha .
all laugh .
ohh yaarh , i wont update that much as theres alot must be done .
hmm naq akurh list doown ? ok , i will + what the thinqs i want it to be done before 21 oct , boleh ?

tomorrow out with mama , adeq & mimibaby to escape theme park .
sundaay - kendarat . mcm cb ! last min bilanq . ( 10.30am-5.30pm )
thynking how to get $100 by 25 oct .
spent as muuuch time w boyf .
vivo w boyf . ( MUST ! )
be ready for 22oct . ( cause now im noot )

alot kan ? hhaa ! thats the why la . i must do eveyrthinq by thys week ! cb tool . thats all for today .
anyway
6 daays left ? im not ready still . sayanq , dont qo . )":

2009-10-14T19:08:00.003+08:00

hey !
im not gona talk much here . out w ayla keai baby just now .
thanks for the day syq ! fun , must out soon k ?
anyway , woont b blogging that muuch cause i have started working ! yeaa .
hahah !
btw sorry aku delete tag board , baby ask to & spammer aint needed ! takde life pah ?
ishk ! grow up ok darlinks ? ookay golek !
&& ohh pls ! im still w my babybooy , if you thynk that why i dont put our picture
firslty baby ask me to change it & he have his own reason ! pasal mulot korang yq mcm sialan !
bapak kau anjing la babi ! pukimak ~
i'll be privating my blog soon , after 22 oct , why ? takya tau !
lagyk pon i wont b updating that much .
byebye .

; BABY BABI , I MISS YOU !

dont worry syq , i will spent more time w you . iloveyou okaay ? muacks

2009-10-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

Second poost for today ?
Meet boyf at woodland last cabin train-ed all the waay to boonlay .
took bus to skate park as boyf playing soccer w his brother's all .
saw syed muhammad syafiq , haha ! buut taq tego la . he just wave at me .
naq mampos kene maki ngn boyf ? ahha .
around 4.20 pm , go to his crib , best tau naek basikaal ! wee ~
mcm jakon eh ? tapyk boyf bawak lagu okaay ?
reaach boyf crib , talk to his mum as his inside the room SLEEPING . da sah BABI HUTAN !
then boyf mum ask to eat , ajak boyf dyerh taknak so i eat w nora . can i be name as yaanapendekboncet ?
after eat wake boyf up but dyerh tdoe ahlek till something happen , kn b kn ? you know i know . shhhhhh !
hahahahah ! around 6 boyf mandyk then off to skate park again . boyf play bola then around 6.45pm gerak homee .
i walk alone to bustop ):
nemind ! understood la kan , boyf busy main bola .
thaats all for today ! no picture taken , cehy fake la . ectually ader but malas mau upload . heheh !
baby ! thanks for the daay k syq ? spent more time together ^.^
iloveyou .

2009-10-13T09:19:00.002+08:00

hey !
i will be meeting booyfriend ! yeaaa .
imisshim imisshim imisshim . happy okaay ?
ouurhya , i boook-ed syq on thys saturdaay , monday , tuesday , wednesday & thrusday ! ^^
but saddening thrus pagy je . boyfriend off soon , haisssh .

; 9 more daays to boyf court ! im so so so so not reaady .
my heart beat fastter whenn the daay is cooming nearer . hooow ?
baby , spent time wisely kay syq ? iloveyou .

2009-10-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

this will be the secoond post for todaay .
meet yaya at yishun poly then go makaans w her mummy & ahdeq .
after eat , her mummy & adeq went to her aunty house , me & yaya go buuy cake .
patah ahlek to her sdare houuse then cut cakee then lepak jap .
arouund 4.30pm ahlekk .
ahlek trus siaap then off again to hougang to daddy friend crib .
around 8+ off homeee . thaats all for today ! mayb bsk meeting boyf .
gue rindu lu doooh !
bubbyeeeeeeeee .

saw thys babygirl ? i miss her . sooo muchhh .

yaya sayanq . come baaack soon kay baby ?

2009-10-12T11:15:00.004+08:00

Hello .
nothing muuch abouut yesterdaay .
the only thing is webcam ! haah . webcam with nanamontel (:
best kankan ? haha ! tawuue . after webcam cannot sleep , otf with her .
thenn malam malam makan . boyf asleep , kan school . hmms . ite maah !
today meeting yaya then going hougang , daddy friend crib . eh ! raya da bes laa . alamak ~
thats all . update soon okaay ? takecarees ! byebye .

; 10 more daays ? ohh god , pls give me strenght to face all thys .
im not strong enouugh . )":

2009-10-11T09:49:00.003+08:00

saturday
hmms . like i say i went to daay's & mummy's friend crib . Open house .
first at yeetee & next at clementi .
from clementi cab-ed to home . Reach home then mimi call , so i siap .
like i say boyf say takleh but i laggar , my fault uhkay ?
reach town , walked to fareast ni uhr yana , pandai sangat kan . mak kau jalan jauh siul ! ahahaha .
penaat kaki akuu . Reach fareast , eat ! sedap . then off settle - ing something , then my turn settle-ing with boyf . gado lagyk but i have to face it la kaan . Ouhhyaa , saw malek , millymeow & her boyf .
salam-ed talktalk jaap then walked off . thought of turon jurong settle stuff with boyf , but da 11+ ? memang sanggop but i have to be home before ayah pehh . so trained home as mimi trained to hougang .
sorry eh taak tag along , da lambat & somemore boyf mengamok siuul . nak mati aku ? haha !
insyde the train there's thys one guy who stand beside me . okay at fryst im not thynking any negative thoughts la kan , so akurh uat bodooh . while i mcqing boyf , tgh gado . thys particular guy keep looking what i was mcqing boyf . at that point of time i feel like its kinda weird la . all the way siuul dyerh nenok .
then step terlanggar akuu . at toa payoh theres a seat , so i seat . he keep looking still . tak rasa mcm seram ? then when at yishun he seat beside me . my heartbeat was like beating v v v v faast . rabaak ! seriouus .
when the train reach woodland cepatcepat akurh trn . fuuuuh ~ naseeb !
haha . reach home at 11.30 , then settle things with boyf . aku sumpah menyesal aku goo .
huumph , settle but my heart still not satisfied , why ? causee boyf is doing back to me , as that what i feel kan .so i keep quite . After putting down the phoone mcqmcq w boyf then sleeep .
i dream of something la , i get into fights w boyf due to thys fcuking thing . so terbangoon .
i was dreaming about boyf off to thys place that i hate my boyf to go la . even if i go , i'll go w boyf .
trus ter-wakeup then call him , saaap ~ betool uhr mimpu aku , dreams do come true eh ?! boyf going MOS nxt sunday ? padahal dyerh kate naq uar ngn aku kn ? nvm , lau aku tak kasek pon dyerh ttp pegyk , so no choice . ader pegy ader alek pek , kan yana kan ? then saturday uar ngn brother ? Hmmm , so koang pandaipandai la pikir aperh aku rasa okaay ? but like i say i wont be mad la , boyf know them fryst peh . so takkn aku nak py halang kan ? let him enjoy . HMMMM .
so next saturday any outing anyone ? lau ader bilang okay ?
okay uhr , thats all for tooday ! bye

thys waas taken yesterday .

Baby , im sorry syq for what i did .
i hate fights alright ? but its me who do it then muust face it ..
i wont lie to you anymore , i will hear every syngle words that you say-ed .
11 days left . so fast kan ? haishh .
ohh ya , theres a mcq that im gona sent to you before that daay comes .
hmm . till here , iloveyou boy . muacks !

2009-10-10T10:35:00.004+08:00

IM OUT ! UPDATE SOON . BYEBYE .

The impact that you giving me now , juust cant make my tears stop . IT HURT !

2009-10-09T16:56:00.009+08:00

2009-10-08T18:49:00.004+08:00

GUEST WHAT , MY NLEVEL END ! hahahahhaha .
right after teacher saay , you may leave the hall , i run and shout , ' yea exam da bes ! acad pelanpelan kayuuh '
people give me one fucking facee . then i shuut up . bustaard ? yea i think they aree .
so yea , i enjoy my last daay . picture will do the talking . before thaat , im uploading wed pic w ith baby
enjooy .
Wed picturee
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Tooday picturee .

teacher say this ; alamak the ah-lians ! haha .

utik (:

i gona miss all thys . )":

Thaats all for todaay (:

2009-10-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

Today get to meet baaby ! yeayea .
haha ! cpa paper i do for 15mins another one hour , sleep ^.^
after school , lepaak smoke & alek .
reach home text baby & siap . Meet baby & apek at woodland , trained all the waay to boonlay .
meet the rest at king's crib , then lepaak at bawah blokk .
aroound 2pm off to baby crib , makan . then i stay baby go main bolaa .
study with baby sister & couusin ( nora) . around 4pm kiterh nenok cerita ' jangan pandang congkak '
waited for baaby call then off to skate park ALONE . soodeh !
ouuuhya , at baby crib people keep talking about _______ , whaat i did was just smile & silent. * sakit hati *
bus-ed to skate paark , mcm happy dapat meet baby , ahha .lepak jaap , hughug baby , mcm beest gituk .
then since ayah da call , baby sent me to bustop . trained all the way to woodland .
reach woodland buuy ljs then off home . thaats all .
not muuch kan ? before i end this poost , BESOK LAST PAPER , YEA !
THEN NO SCHOOL , ITS SUMMER TIME ! (:

Happy one month annyvesary !

2009-10-06T10:09:00.003+08:00

see this ? its taken yesterdaay . jangan pikir bukaanbukaan eh !

todaay's post will be especially for my baaby .
***********************************
Our anniversary means a lot,
Much more than any another day
I celebrate my love for you,
And cherish you in every way.
Through passing time, our love still grows,
A caring relationship to explore;
Our life together gets better and better,
And I keep on loving you more and more.
When I first met you,
I fell in love so fast, I knew right then,
You were the one and only one for me;
I'd never have to look for love again.
Each anniversary finds us happier;
You are my light--my moon, my star, my sun.
You show me what real love is all about,
You fill my life with pleasure, joy and fun.
As time goes by, our love grows stronger still.
You're the most amazing guy I ever knew.
I prize our anniversaries because
Each daay, I fall in love again with you.

HAPPY FIRST MONTH ANNYVESARY SAYANG !
ILOVEYOU , MUACKS .

2009-10-05T10:31:00.002+08:00

Hello .
As again you can see thaat i change blogskins .
i try-ed to put songs but cannot , like sian .
Hmms , tooday is the last 3 paper , elements of business skills .
Through out years to me , ebs have to do will your own thinking la .
i try-ed to open books but noting come in my mind . like wth ?
twinny have been asking me to tag along with her to macdonald with ian , makan & study .
so like whaat i say-ed nth come in my mind , so lupakan saja . haha !
lets talk aboout yesterday .
Like i saay in my previous post , im out with family members to sedare's house .
so yea , from woodland to sengkang , sengkang got two house then to bedok , from bedok to jurong west & from jurong west to yishun . penat doooh ~
alep text me ask-ing me to go open house so tell mama & we go .
reach chuachukang but mama didnt stay long la .
lepaak there , then planing to do something . so yea i had so called ' big fights ' with boyfriend .
alep & liza knows how hurt am i , how mad am i & how bad i cry-ed . you know it kind of huurt when you're boyfriend say's that his single ? what do you expect kaan ? liza says this to me ' lau dyerh naak syngle sangat , go ahead ! let him be la . '
i juust keep silent , mayb she's right , buut in the other waay round , why muust i listen to others ? its me who make the decision . i love boyfriend and nothing could change that . things can be talk out . i call-ed boyfriend , tell him that i was the one who is msg-ing . i doont really know whaat i say-ed but im harsh to him . superb harsh . i doont even let him a chance to explain things . then after a while boyfriend says ' sorry ' . im still huurt but i ignore . took-ed bus to cck interchange with alep , thanks for sending me hoome . something haapen again , _______ text me saying that boyfriend is texting his ex - girlfriend & this time i called king straight away cause not only that i even get to know that boyfriend was the one who reply-ed those msq-es . siaal uhrs ! Binget siul akurh .
alep have been trying to calm me down , but too bad la eh . like i say-ed i called king , mampos sia dyerh kene maki hamon even i shouted at him ? you see how mad . boyfriend called a few minutes time , i talk to him in kuang ajar waay & puut down just like that . reach woodland alep train-ed baack to bouna vista , then i cab-ed home . talk to boyfriend i toold him how mad am i & i ask-ed him to know his mistaake then puut down again just like thaat . reach home receive again called from him . ni time i say this waay ' nanty i kol alek la ! ' case binget gilerh . go toilet cuci kaki tukar aju & called boyfriend . Talk things oout with him . i cry-ed while talking to him , buut i dont show any cry-ing la . he keep saying his ' sorry ' , he keep saying that his sincere , he loves me & ect .
should i trust him ? haishh . boyfriend told me not to truust him but when i think baack no use relationship w/o trust . righht ? talktalktalk thenn da ' Okay ' . buut im still hurt by your words .
Put down the phone , then my tears roll down my cheecks . fristly im happy that im okay with boyfriend but secondly im not okay cause i have to bare the huurt . being huurt two years then for three month & now ? so through out my serious relationship i've been huurt . can i ever be happy ? nemind . relationships theres up & doowns but for mine are always down . )":
msq-ing boyfriend sekali tertdo .waakeup , receive two msq . boyfriend msq & one unknown number .
these the msq from unknown number .
unknown : " Selamat hari raya aidilfitri maaf zahir & batin kepada semua . :D "
yana : " ni saperh ? "
unknown : " mohd aidi bin ardnan lah * my full name * ^_^
so i get to know thats dee fly , hahah !
yana : " ouhh , sorry tak save num "
deefly : " yelah, dee kan sape .. mane ade nk save no. dee lagy , pooodaaah!
yana :" haha , sorry . siang bangun ? "
deefly : " Naseb baik tgh time hari raya , bulan maaf-maafan , kalau tk tiada maaf bagimu! haha . oh sebenarnya i belom tdo ar , tgh lepak je thats all , anyway tak skola pe ?"
yana : "school , nanty . nlevel uhr naary "
deefly " oh ok then , goodluck to you , buat exam betul , use time given well ok ? you gy blaja dulu lah ok , anyting text me ok ?
yana : thanks , ouhkays . you too pape text i . takecaree .
hahah ! taak the sangke ok ? anyway dee , thanks for the support alright ? wee ~
after mcqing , kemas umaah & update blooog .
now receive called to boyfriend adeq . haishh ! lagyk dyerh peragai .
taak abesabes la . boyfriend mummy crying while talking to me . haishhh , sodeh yaana .
haishhh . thaats all for today okaay ? i'll update soon . bubbye .

baby . i if you're reading this . im sorry if i let out everything here . im sorry if i've huurt you witth my woords . im sorry for everything . i juust want the best from you . firstly abouut me & you , you hurt me again & again & again without realising . tomorrow is our one month annyvesary , now this happen ? i want you to change , i want you to be sincere , i want your true love , i dont waant you to play around ! get it ? how much time left ? not muuch . next two week ? haishh . wthh ? y cant you just change ? i know it aint eaasy BUT i will guide you through . you only have to make that decision to change or not . okaay ? haishhh ! pls b , you know iloveyou . stop hurting me & pleasee i hate ex-girlfriend ! i swear .
Secondly , your family . im not going to intefear thaat much but i pity your mummy . she been cying talking to me . yes , crying . whaat i can say is , if theres no her , theres no you . go back & think every syngle thing thaat you have done wrong before its too late . okaay syq ? everyone loves you , you know thaat . people wants the best for you especially your family . they were the one who guide's you through , they wre the one who you've been through thick & thins , up & downs . so baby go think . lastly , do change . everyone's loves you & i too love you syq . )":

2009-10-03T10:06:00.012+08:00

todays post will be from tuesday , wednesday , thrus , fridaay & today .
i will start from tuesday caan ?
this will be the long poost .

but before i start , as you can see i change my skin again .

but thuis time link all hilang & i get back only some links when i was bloghopping .

so do tag me if i have not link you . alright ?

ok donee .let shits , saperh sangop bacer? bacer laa . hah .
Tuesdaay .
i caant remeber a thing but , papa came my placee & adeq .i miss them )" :
i spent time with adeq jokes around & adeq aslo play come lawan uno with baaby , haha .
thats all i can remember . soory .
Wednesday .
went school , to rewind back i guess school was okaay .
laughter & many free period ?
mcm bodoh kann ? nlevel this mondaay theen free period , wow ! haha .
go homee , siap-ing . planning go melawat then taak jadyk .
so twinny , i & the rest plan to go swimming . go swimming , i had fun , the slide & all . hahaha .
merepek uhr kiterh semua , like jakon taak penak go swimming . nyeeek !

i look short & booncet .

bigbig eyes .

reflectioon

something happen , i doont wish to eleborate here .
im still angry with you till now eh & bcause of your bloody mouth uhr , cheebye .
ok , cut that . afteer swimming go bolaa . i get to meet baaby , happyhappy ^^ .

rindu sangat sangat . alamak ~ then i saw someee warriors cheerleader , wahliao kerekk , baabi .
half time i witth baby , daapat hug , lpas kan rindu siul akurh . baaah ~
after bola pinish , i saw taktau namerh saperh , mcm lamerh gituk eh taak nampak . & baby bro un knl dyerh. whaat a small woorld . hahah ! go homee naek lorry & for baaby , he balek with his brothers .
mlm talk with baaby & tell him that im sending him to mcys , paksse siul akurh . lastly he accepted my decision . lau taak ni anak cabot lagykk . hahah .
im not a cheerleader after all . da make decisionnn . soory guys !
thats all for wednesdaay .

Thrusday .

wake up due to baaby morning call , so siap & meet him at woodlands mrt station . 7 train terlepas . ishk ! lambaat . train-ed all the way to toa payooh then walk to mcys . jauh siul , tapyk sanggop antaa . after reach wait-ed for his p.o then after he go in , i waited for him 1/2hr ? ok uhr m taak lamerh sangat . finish everytjing , saw el outside salam-ed & walk off . train-ed all the way to boonlay & bus-ed to baaby crib . get him change waited for the rest then lepak . guest what eh , i spent 10hours with baby . waited for him main bolaa . lamerh kau tau -_- . this pictures candid . haha ! b , jng maarah yerh .

baaaby & budakbudak dyerh play bolaa .
spot my baaby .

& again , candid .

cutee la doang . hahah ! after play bola me , baaby & the rest lepaak .
around 6+ all jalan left me baby & king ,so walk-ed to baby blok , lepaak theree . around 8.45 bus-ed homee . since my hp batt low , i off uhrrr then when i on at the bustop , i get 5 miss call , ingat mama .
checkcheck when reach home bukan mama call , baby mummy call suruh naik . naak makan .but taakpe , im otw home ready . next time okaay ? hehehe . soory . reach home saw papa , hug him siul cause his going baack qatar . maandy , makan , sms with baby then terdoee . sorr eh b ? hahaha . after a long daay with you , penat dohh ~ thaats all for thrusdaay . baabysayang , thanks for the daay .i sayang youu .

Friday

school as penormal , && again free period all the waay .

thats the last daay of school , i going miss the funs in schoool but , the best part is , no school . yea ! haha
after school go home siap . then meet ahdy & twinny at circle green . thenn meet apek at admiralty . train-ed all the waay to marsiling to ian black housee . ohh not to forget meet fyeeqa & epul at marsiling .
pictures do the talking . im alone wearing black . (:

at ahdysotsot crib

apeklurb

Epul rascal

Ian black

twinny .

saperh lagyk yg ambek kan gmbr kan ? nyek -_- .

blur .

ilovethem.

ahdysotsot .

after all finissh , then last house man at marsiling . thaats all for yesterday .
reach home at 12 ? agaknyerk . msg with baby & i miss him again . ala !
taakpe la . thanks for the day guys .

saturdaay .

i will updatee soon .
but what makes me happy is , mimibaby back ! imissyou laaaaaaaa , mustmust meet .
iloveyou girlfriend . paln nak study today but tertdo . haha ! blaja dalam mimpi . baaah ~

go yishun umah sdare then homee . by the way tomorrow out with family .ajak baby but he say takank ala -_- .. takpe baby kan pemaluu .hahaha , believe it k ? nlevel this mondaay . wishh me the best alright ? i'll updatee soon & btw bare with ,me for the dead of my blog . update soooon .byeeeeeee .

; i dont know mhy im typing this but baaby you make me love you like no one business la siul !

CASPER YANTAO , YANASMALL PUNYARH SURANG . get that in your head bitch .
dont ever dare flirting around alright ? cause if you do , hidup lu takkn selamat la . haha !
kan yana da boal . hahaha ! iloveeeeeeeyou okaay b ? you're my one & only , satusatu nye yana punyarh baabylove ok ? im missing you now & im loveeyou . muahhh ! meeeeeeeeet me la . ^^

sooon ok ? must hughug & kisskiss okay ? weee ~

takk sabar . ok la done . ok bye .

much loveeee , yanasmall , may peace upon you .

2009-10-02T07:50:00.001+08:00

Heello !
i had fun these daays , even it sucks at parts .
so yea , i spent timee w baby yesterday . best !
haha ! now im late for school , update when reach home okaay ?
&& im off jalan raya todaay , byeeeeeeeeee .

2009-09-30T11:49:00.002+08:00

Currently in school .
Today school was superb! hahha .
in the morning , twinn call & told me mayb she's not coming school .
then called fyeeqa she neverh pickup .
Ingat duadua tak datang , when at block icecream suddenly saw twinny , happy siul .
ok , merepek -_- .
haah ! go cateen saw syazly & he say ni " eh yana , mcmne tak boncet ? " haha .
i just smilee .
buy burger then naek class saw fyeeqa . happy lagyk . haha .
today mcm laen , aku sumpah .
me twinny & fyeeqa has been talking since morning , jokes around
& theres one part we talk about mase kiterh baaby , satusatu ketawerh pecah perot sia .
now im typing sambil ketawerh , hahah .

Twinny : eh , kau tau tak ulu aku many swimming pat toilet ?
yana & fyqa : ahahaha !
TigaTida HI-5 .
Yana : uhuh ! yang mase pat umah kau kn twin ?
hahah .
fyeeqa : uhuh siul , aku pon . case ulu tak leh gy swimming eh nanty mak marah & tkt tengelam .
yana : asal nari kite mcm merepek uh ?
twinny : kiterh haryhary mepek

all laugh .
then we talk about working .
ni part banyak songeh sia , sampai akurh , twinny , fyeeqa , lina gy carek pat newspaper , sanggop eh ? padahal keje da dapat . makin lamerh makin mepek .
fyeeqa : carek uhr keje
yana : kaykay
twinny : k
yana : uh ni ! tapy ni hostes . ahahha
twinny : eh kau kn * refering to akurh *
keep checking .
yana : uh , jadyk cleaner ?
fyeeqa : eh yana ! kau jng mepek la
twinny : laen kaly nak twin , pikir & da tau baru cakap

haha ! mengamok shey kakak aku .
when it comes to math lesson .

twinny : 'eh mcm ne uhr nak uat ni ? "
yana : ' uhuh ! aku poon taktau '
fyeeqa : ' ala senang je'
Then fyeeqa teach us . but still i cant make it . so i lie to her say i know , this is what happen next .
yana : ' okok aku paham '
fyeeqa : ' ok bagos , now uat yg side punyer '
yana : ' eh takpe aku da paham '
fyeeqa : ' ni question lom abes la '
hahaha ! twinny ketawerh kan .
continue study .
twinny : ' eh ni toh cas soh eh ? '
yana : ' ni aku tau , jap eh jap ' * mcm pahams *
(Open book , then see the steps & formulae )
yana : ' uh mcm nik '
( step ajar , padahal taktau )
yana : ' eh girl , ectually aku taktau uhr '
hahahah ! trus kene kutekle sia ! musibot tol !
sasway aku duduk tengah . haha .
after buat math , all giveup end up talk about bolaa .
lagyk mepek .
yana : ' naty kau rasa ader gado tak '
fyeeqa : ' takde uhr '
twinny : ' takde '
yana : ' cheerleader ? '
fyeeqa : ' kite nenok '
ahhaha ! rabaks ~
Go recess cabot daryk cikgu , ahha !
makanmakan & lanchawhey pasal org , bek ~
after all that , cpa lesson , haha ! & now updating .
later mayb meeting baby , then bolaa
aku suka , yea !
hhaha
i'll update soon k ? byee .

2009-09-29T11:48:00.002+08:00

Im speechless .
why do all of you keep silent & not telling me that he has gone ?
why !?
aku saperh sia korang tak bilang ?
haishh .
in school , eqababy run to me & say "
eqa : yana , ader bad news "
her eyes full of tears .
i ask-ed why & this is what she say
eqa : " wawan da meninggal last sunday "
yana : " wawan maner? "
eqa : " wawan , sdare aku , sdare jauh kau & ex kau "
im fucking shock-ed & my mind was blank .
next , i cry . i dont concentrate in class . i help teacher out for nlevel thing & did not attend
math lesson .
i called budak buketbatok & no answer .
i call chacai .no answer , sodehh )":
recess run to eqa & i told her this .
yana : " asal dyerh pegy siang uhh ? "
eqa : ' hug & cry "

thats all & now i got free 5 period . no moood !
bye !

Al -fatiha , wawan may you rest in peace .
i miss you . )":

2009-09-28T19:43:00.004+08:00

my eyes big kan ? ignoree my facee .

TODAY SUCKS >.<>

lagylagy now , my body is superb weak .

i went school as pernomal just now .

my hair must tie but taknak ~

susah mau ikat siul . after school meet aunty buy kfc .

baby when poooool .

now i miss baaby so much butbut , doest he ?

negative thinking sia yaana ! merepek ~

I've been texting baby sister at night , so yea she keep asking me to be strong .

haish , she keep aking me not to cry , i say-ed i caant . how ? haishhs .

in school , go follow what my heart say , i go count how many day left .

my tears roll down my cheeck , bodoh kan yana ?

i want spent as much time with baby , yesyes , muchmuch .

my love grow deeper for baby each day , i missing baby everytime .

how siaa ? baby say if meet harihari cepat jelak but if sayang ?

Hmms , now nah wait baby text ! quickquick text me or call .

semalam da paitao , haishh ! imissyou b )":

if only you know how much iloveyou & how hard for me to let you goo .

Baaby , i know you know that iloveyou .

my hearts says " you're the one baby , now till the end . i hope you treat me differently from your ex .

make this r'ship the best one sayang , cause you're the best .

you took my heart away , farfar away that i cant no longer stand the love that i've found for you .

i dont regret accepting you in life . you meant soo or even too much to me .

Trust me . for whatever the reason is baby , i'll be the one to go through up & downs together .

We're new but doesnt mean we're new we cant get along easily .

we can , only that we should understand each other more .

i really hope we will last . & baby , im ready for everything that is going to happen in the upcomings .

im sure going to wait even how long it takes . i'll prove to you that my love doesnt fade for you , i will show to you how much you mean to me & how setia i am with you . Trust me alright saayang ? people say action speak louder than words , right ? yea , now im showing it to you . people may say that i'll be flirting with others , b ! i doont k ? pls trust meeee . i will just be making myself busy with studies , work , family & your family alright ? what i can say now is , family come first , what's important to me now is , my family , you & your family . i love all of you . (:

you dont have to be woory k sayang ?

i'll pray hard for you . insyallah takde paapee .

iloveyou . muacks .

&&& BABY ! GY TOPUP LA !>.<

2009-09-27T11:06:00.014+08:00

time will heal the pain in me . you know its fake smilee

Yesterday im out .
meet aziq & fiq at bishan , they waited for me lamerhh . sodey ~
nevermind . Reach rumah ciknor then makan & talktalk .
when nak kuar umah saw _____. terkejot berok akurh .
talk kejap & walk-ed off .
Trained all the way to little india , then cab-ed to aunty condo near plaza singapura with mama .
reach aunty house , seat at balcony ! best shey , the view like lawa gilerh .
&& i can see F1 ! jakkon sia ! even can dengar the bunyi you know , ahahahha !
arnd 8+ bus-ed home .
something happen at night , im so fhauwihdgefuckjvuhaeriuvhu .
jadyk baik saalah , jadyk kasa pon salah . how ni ? aku jadyk manusia takde perasaan la .
haishh ! after settle all , i just keep myself silent .
msq baby's sister . msgmsg then sleep .
wakeup receive 17 unknown number . -__-
nevermind .
msn w baby , but i never chat with him first la , his the one .
chatchat then baby have to go .
chat with ijan he say-ed this .

::: '' IJAN SPENCER ::: young boss
poooh yana bilerh nk collect?
Yanasmall ; sweetest baabylovee ‘CASPER YANTAO’[!]
bilerh ?
::: '' IJAN SPENCER ::: young boss
da lamer siott pat my table
::: '' IJAN SPENCER ::: young boss
da wrap2
Yanasmall ; sweetest baabylovee ‘CASPER YANTAO’[!]
when yana free ok ? yana take daryk ijan .

thats was our conversation , ahha ! present akurh la .^.^
POOH BESAR ! thanks eh ijan (:
ok done with that .
around 3+ siap-ing then out to mama friend crib .
mama ajak walk raya , but akurh ni pemals !
next time je laa . i bought my black contatc lense .
yeahh ! hahaha , abes duit akurhh . adui .
Meet mimibaby at bustop . hug her .haishh ! 1 week no her ? alamak ~
mati la akurh ginik . she will be back on 3 october . lamerh kankan ?
ishhks ! takper laa . makesure present akurh dyerh kene bawak balik ,
jangan bawak bangla sudah ehhs , haha .
baby now is out , aku rindu dyerh . yes , soo muchh .
i will update again when theres story's cause now ,
im out of woords . soorry !
& to all , jangan kau start aku peh baik korang pijak aku peh kepale okay ?
baby ask me to changee , sayang peh pasal , sbb tuh la berubahh . haishh !
takper ikhlas ! butbut , i will be harsh to you if you're over my limits .
i too have limit , get that in your head ! (:
bybye .

pictures below are taken today & yesterdayyy . Enjoy ^.^

Dyerh sebok pakai pink ! kerenting tol , ahhah !

He use-ed to be my punching bag , but sekarang
yana da goodgirl . sorry okay caicaak ?
but you should know your mistake too .

Todaay pictures .

Lynnn .

Miimiibaby , imissyou

Ein , jage mimibaby akurh toltol okay ?

She's the best !

to my dearest fauziah .
hey baaby , thanks for the post , khamu sweet .
so yea , i'll takecaree of him . insyallah kite last alright ? & thanks for the advise .
on 22/10 im not strong , i hope you're around . hope you're theere with me to face those up & down's .
pls ? will you ? i promise alright , i'll wait for him . im not going flirt around like other bitch out there .
i love abg for who he is , not the way he look . (:
&& adeq ! yesyes , i hate perampas too . jiwerh uhr . you know i know . haha .
&& iloveyou girl , you too stay strong .
kite doa manymany alright ?

To baby ,
syq , im soory . im sorry for eveything . the mistakee .
i promise i'll changee . but it take timee .
pleasee b , spent our time wisely okay ? i just need the happy moments with you .
ohhyarh , since you want me to change back right ? i dont talk to boyfriend " kau akurh "
so , from now on , you can hardly hear me talking to you" kau aku " .
yana the goodgirl coming back . i respect you as my boyfriend thats why i wont be harsh or rude .
you will see me changeee . baaby , i sayang you .

2009-09-26T13:29:00.001+08:00
This will be the second post for today .
im boreed ! baby is out & later im out too .
so yea kinda mendak cause neevrh meet baaby .
i will update soon alright ? today rumah pack !
byebye .

2009-09-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

thys is call L.O.V.E
my baaby is superh sweet .
you will never be replace too baabysayang .
iloveyou & only youu .

Ok ! hello , todaay sucks likee alot ! uhuh sia . the whole fucking day me & sayang been arguing , i cry-ed two times .ishks ! nemind , its my fault okaay ? BUT at night its not my fault .im so mad !!
madmadmad .ye uhr , saperh tak bigit , kalau kawan makan kawan ?
angkat mataey kawan sendirk ?

pukimak peh idasewel . LAWAR ATAU PECAH ?
NI PONPUAN KUAR GY RAYA NGN AKU & MATAEY AKU SEMUA PY RAYA .THEN BROTHER MATAEY AKU DUA NIK STEP LAYAN DYERH SINCE AKU SURUH . BEH DORANG LAAYN DYERH ,
DYERH STEP JUAL MAHAL .
AKU PERHATIKAN MATA DYERH ,
DYERH NGOKNGOK KAN MATAEY AKUU .
SO AKU UAT BDH LA KAN ! THEN PAT KHATIB GY UMAH KAWAN AKU PEH SDARE .
SO KAWAN AKU PEH SDARE LELAKI NAK STEP KNLKNL NGN DYERH UNTOK UAT DYERH SS !
BEH END UP LAKI TUH BILANG YAYA DYERH NAK KNLKNL NGN AKU .
NI PUKIMAK NI JELOUS ! BEH KITA GY BEDOK , MATAEY AKU STEP LAYAN DYERH ,
NI PUKIMAK BOLEH GO NI ! MATAEY AKU MCM " PELOK " DYERH NI PUKIMAK UAT BODOH !
NGN LAKI LAEN UAT MUKA ! TAK MCM CHEEBYE ? BEH TADYK PAGYK AKU PLAN NAK NGOK DYERH PERAMPAS TAK ,AKU ADD DYERH PAT MSN MATAEY AKU STEP JADYK MATAEY AKU UHR , MELEBEH OII !BLERH AKU TANYE NI
" I TAKNAK YANA , I NAK U , BOLEH PEH ?
"DYERH REPLY-ED " MAYB ? BEH YANA U NAK LTK MANA ? "
MCM SUNDAL TAK !?!!!!!?!?!?!? PAS TUH TADYK ,MATAEY AKU KAI LOUDSPEAKER CALL DYERH .MEMBER SUARA STEP CUTE SIAL ! BEH ADER HATI MAU COMPLAIN & UAT MULOT ? AAHAHA .
KAN AKU DA SOT , KENE MAKI ATAS BAWAH ! && BECAUSE OF HER , AKU ADER CONFLICT NGN MATAEY AKU .NASEB SEKARANG DA OKAY . AKU MAKI HAMON , TROS DIAM & LETAK .AKU CKP UH ,
" ASAL KAU KENE LAYAN AKU PEH JANTAN ? "
PUKIMAK : " DYERH YANG MSN NGN AKU , MINTAK NO AKU "
YANA : SIYAL UHR , YG CHAT NGN KAU AKU LA , EH LAU KAU NAK CKP ! KAU JNG NAK SALAH KAN MATAEY AKU , KAU DA TAU DYEERH AKU NYERH ASAL KAU BOLEH LAYAN ! PUKI MISKIN PE SIAL , PUKIMAK ! KAU PEH PUKI GY JUAL PAT LORONG !JNG JADYK PERAMPAS , JUAL JUBOD LAGYK BEST ! KAU STANDBY , NAMPAK AKU LARI JAUHJAUH .KAU DA NAK ANGKAT KAKA AKU PEH JANTAN ! SEKARANG AKU NYERK LAK ! POMPUAN SUNDAL ! BOSIAAA "
PUKIMAK : * DIAM & LETAK *KENTAL SIYAL .
kau standy byy ! dengan kakak aku peh jantan seklay kau mau angkat kan ?nak coverh pantat kau ? tak dapat uhr , yang chat ngn kau semuanya akurh !bukan maen lagyk eh kau ? ahhaha ! standyby . uhh , nyik baru adeqvamp cheeebye ! aka aku dngr pon bigit siot . muke da pecah , aku kasek pecah lagyk yerhs .maaf ! Buat mulot ! nabe cheebye . kau jelous ckp pasal madi action ank uat kau bangee .madi sendiryk kate muka kau pecah laa . hahah ! lawarh ? nenek aku lagyk lawa .kau nak ckp aku gado pasal jantan ? ckp la , aku sayang aku peh lakituh sebab aku gado dohhh !aku kol taktau angkat ! beh msg ckp kau sebenarnya da attached ngn budark lakko ?ehh girl dengar , kau nak bangge kan mataey kau lakko ? haha ! ni takde kene mengena okay ?kau da uat taik py jilat kasek bersih ! kau memang ppm puki miskin ! jantan orng mau kebaas .da kene namerh kan pompuan rolling ! haha , padan muka .eh da uhr eh , aku tak boal banyak , nak jumpa , paaham ? anytime anyday, please eh please jng banyak alasan ! sial !
GIGI DA MCM KUDA ! KUDA LAGYK LAWA ! HAHAH .

im done with that ! now , let the pictures do the talking alright ?

baaby ! mukee stop it ! haahah .

sweet as canddy

baaby da mcm michael jackson . haha.

be jelous ok people ?

MINEMINEMINE !!!!!!!!!!!

sehaty sejiwerh itam , accept satuu !

coupleeee

to all, thanks for making my day even sekejap !
but , i had fun with baaby through out .

2009-09-25T10:20:00.005+08:00

babyloveeee .

baby kiss !

ilove this baabi !

rayaa 2009 .

at yaya's cousins placee .

casper & king

ice , casper , king , jepon

ice & king

step fiercee

king - that cute guy (:

jepon - mata dyerh sepet (:

bob - mcm teddy bear (:

candid !

Those were taken yesterday , i had fun !
hahhaah , tuh jee . im out of words .
&& baabybabi , thanks for the day sayang .
iloveyouu .

2009-09-24T08:22:00.004+08:00
hey !
im in school , goodgirl kankankan ?
sorry i dont get to blog yesterday , da penat siaa .
let shits !
yesterday off to meet sayang at jurong , meet him at his house .
lepak jap . lepaskan rindu sia akurh ! hug sayang like lamerh gituk .
but tetap tak puas . nak lamerhlamerhlmaerh , nak kiss sayang manymanymany .
heheheh , after that since mama call have to meet her , go dpn school then i took bus ,
sayang maen pool .
Meet mama at wooland , walkwalk .i get new heels & accecories .
so the happy .
otw home , fyeeqah call asking me to come dancee, akurh da malas .
then she say , all camee . i have to comee lorhs .
alek letak barang , then cab-ed to 777 . hahaha ! malas nak jalan .
dance till drop , cheychey fake .
till 8 , then but smoky & lepak .
wait-ed for fyeeqa daddy pasal nak ambek barang since she sleep umah twinny .
& me i go home , sayang suruh . SAYANG dyerh peh pasal then go home straight .
balek , talk to mimibaby , like serious shit i miss her .
today off raya w sayang , yaya , mimi , cicak & tatau sapeerhhsapeerh lagyk .
then tomorrow mayb off again ?
nenok uhr , must comperm w sayang .
in the morning , meet twinny & fyeeqa at her blk then smoky , then off school .
lambat ~
mayb besok neverh go school .
thats all for todayy , updatee soon alright ? takecares !

; im ready , but im just not ready to see you go infront of me . dont worry , im will to be strong , no matter what , i will wait , trust me alright sayang ? iloveyou la okays ? we still have time . yea so , spent our tiem wisely ok ? i know , you know that iloveyou & cant be apart from uu . im not like others out there , iloveyou for who you are & not the way you look even you * sicko & stmf * in the first starting , haha ! baaby , be yourself okay ? makesure every words taht you have sya-ed to me is from your heart . dont hurt me alright ? i will keep sayaing that iloveyou & i will provr to you that &&&&& i will prove you wrong that all girls are the samee . i setia . setia pada yu surang . ok ? ok gooooo ! hahahah . I LOVE YOU BABI ! (:

im left out , like again ? haish ! past years , i have been suferring this way , so whats the point having this kind of _______ . after what happen , what do i get in return ? nothingg !
hurt ? yea maybe ? so i guest , i have make up my mind , I WILL NOT BE THAT KIND , NICE & WHATEVERH STUFF okayy ? i have enough . This really spoil my mood todday . bye .

2009-09-22T18:51:00.006+08:00

Today , i never attend shool .
due to my sickness of pemalas , cheychey !
tak uhr , due to berakberak -__- .
talk to sayang thadyk . i miss him sosososo much , thrusday can umperh.
my hair is now straight ! yeayea . ahah .
ok mepek uhr yana .
ectually , not much thing happen thats why my otak is blank . ahahha .
below are pictures that i took just now , ngh mendakkk , haha !
ok uhr , updatee soon okokok ?
byebye .

; baaby , call me will you ? imissyouu .

2009-09-22T10:14:00.002+08:00
yesterday im out .
go umah sdare w adeq .
Thought of meeting sayang then got slight problem , tak jadyk .problem merepek sekaly ,
haha !after when to aunty housee , flag a cab-ed to woodlnd , drop at adeq's placee
.then meet her friend . sorry lupe namerh , ask him but ciggy .isap jap , lepak & homee sweet homee .
At night talk to sayang , ahah ! i know you know eh b ? i hope semua kyterh boal cumerh firstfirst jerh ,tak sangke eh ectually kyterh dua tak sayang kan each other bilerh barubaru mataey ?
da lamerh aru start sayang , nyek ! hahaha . Put down w sayang & yana tdoee .
he called back & i pickup but akurh taktau aperh akurh boal , ahah ! what i know ,
i remember reapting what he say ." goodnight , sweetdream , loveyou & muaah " i reapet afterhe sayy , ahah ! but belakang aderh tooo , thats means mcm " iloveyoutoo "haahha !kecohhhhhhhhh .
wakeup at 5.30 tros gy toilet sia , saket perot . pukiwarks , pagypagy .then 6+am agy toilet agy , haiss !
then i realise that my saket pero come backs .thats what i hate the most . plan nak meet sayang comferm tak jadyk !haishh ! tunggu thrus je la mcm nyik . neminddd ~
sayang havent called me yet , i miss him ! howhowhow ?

;baby , i hope whateverh taht we both had said is only the past & like i say now iloveyou & its not fake lovee .though your words do hurt me i cant do anything cause what we planned is not the same now . dont hurt me ok baaby ? pleaseee . dont be like others baby , i dont want my past to reapet . pleaseee .
Though theres up & downs , you hurt me / i hurt you without realising , my love aint fake .
im sorry alright for everything , i dont wish to be hurt & to hurt you .
my harsh words , my wrongdoings . im sorry .
be someone that im finding all this wwhileeeee .
baby , iloveyouu .
muacks )":

2009-09-20T19:51:00.006+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA !
pagypagy kene py hospital take nenek .
Before that mintak maaf w ayah , uncle & atok .hah ! kecohh ~ tapy cutee uhrs ,
i keep reapting the same thing what i have say-ed to them last year .
beh da taktau nak ckp aperh , sorry yerhs !So cab-ed w aunty to NUH , talk to sayang otf .
Talk about something & i cry-ed w/o his knowing .
keep wipping my tears , but doesnt seems to stop ,
so i change the topic about raya & pasal duit raya !
BUT i guest he suspect uhr , i have my reasons for changing those topics .
i just dont want to think about that datee , i ready ,
yes i am but im not ready without him by my sidee & to see him go infront of me .
please god , save him alright ? i need him , i love him .
my tears starts to roll down my cheeck againn now haishh !
kk cut the story .
after taking nenek , bring her homeee .
Reach homee mintak maaf w mama , since thady before go she's in the toilet .
After all Family & cousins all gathers but its not the same ,
i cry-ed alot and different kinds of reasons .
Family are never the same .One family is missing )": .
i miss you guys alot , you know ?
maybe this the worse hari raya , i guest . haishhh .
Mirasayang makes me smilee ,
i neverh talk alot today but i took pictures w my cousins . i miss them !
yesyesyes , much misses .
The family from other side that means my mum's brother wife family camee .
& how i wishh my mummy( aunty)is heree w her kids .
Talk to my papa(uncle) , his at dubai .
yana : papa ! imy , when coming back eh ?
papa : maybe next week , why ?
yana : come my placeee ! makesuree .
papa : nak duit raya je tau
yana : ahahah !
mcm tautau je papa akurh !
boleh dapat duit raya manymany ! yea !
must pay ayah cauuse bill melambung ,
after paying $87.00 then ayah ckp ni "
kalau ayah kene 4D nari tak payah bayarh "
so , mulot yana kan masin , ahha ! ayah kenee uhr .
Fuhhh ~ naseb ! but the rabak part is , yana mintak claim ayah tak kasek !
arghhhh .baekbaek duit raya $100+ , sekarang balance $40 ! puki ahhhh .
sot jerhs .but pikirpikir alek , im the one using this hp why must he pay kan ?
soooooooooo ,takperh uhr . them balance money yana takkn sentuh tuh duit .
nak collect manymany . yeayea .rumah sedare blom serang nyiks . =p
Mendarks! Sayang is out .alaaaaa , cant talk to him . B ! cepat topup , i rindu msgmsg ngn you la
baaabysayang ! haiyaaa . maybe bsk tak keluar ,
malas ~ nak umperh sayang . Rindu dyerhs !
tapy kalau uar then sedara datang , da duit raya gonee .
so better stay at home ! hahahahaha !
mata duit-an sia yana , ala sayang ajar (:
At night orang bedok comee . haah ! but i never layan , malas ~
bilerh doang ahlek then salam .
talk to sayang & complain about duit raya & he ketawe kan . musibot !
kecian kan akurh uhr kalau yerh pons ! argh .
Hmms , ok uhrrs i'll updatee soon alright ?
im out of words .
byebye .
enjoy your rayaaa .

; sayang , i cant promise you not to cry , cause i will . im sorry ,i just cant bare see you go .
But i will still face everything &make it a challenge .
i will wait for you no matterh how long alright ?promise is a promisee .
we still have 1mthh2days to spent together , spent our time with full of happyness ,
laughter . make it the best 1mtth2days baabby .
pleaseee .
iloveyou b ! )":

may peace upon you

2009-09-19T10:34:00.004+08:00

HELLOHELLOHELLO !
Talk about yesterday uhkay ?
so , like i say-ed went to geylang .
Meet rarayeon at sembawang train-ed all the way to payalebar . PANTAT PANAS SIOT .
hahah ! inside train , Guest what ! i saw apish ! peh happy , hah ! lamerh sia diktu tak gy school mendark uhr takde dyerhs . he w his kawans/brother , Talk to him , rindurindu akurh peh kecoh ngn dyerh .
apish : kau tak py skola ?
yana : tak uhr , da 3 hary siot !
apish : haha ! nak jadyk mcm akurh perh ? N-level baru datang .
yana : uhuh , ahha !
He stop at bugis & me trained all the way to payalebar .
Meet sayang , yaya , haziq & king at payalebar . them must wait for myrakeaisayang & amaliahsayang .
amaliah , kawan baruu , dyerh lawarhh , sumpah !
Then ingat daarhs leh jalan , then must wait untuk sayang perh brother ,
Sempat cuci mata , sayang pons cuci mata .
Afterh they reach , off to joochiat , ikot sayang & brother dyerh pusingpusing .
sampai joochiat , receive msg liyababy all da sampai singpost . Since i want spent time with sayang ,
i ask-ed myrakeaisayang , amaliahsayang & rarayeonsayang to go first .
soory ehys koangs ? understand understood .
myra ask-ed me to promise her to meet her at singpost ,i say-ed okay .
walk-ed walk-ed w sayang , brother's dyerh , haziq , yaya's mum , yaya & her adeq .
Around 6.50pm nak kat buka . As for sayang , he puasa so must buka . He go buy water then this is the conversation between me , yaya & yaya's mum .
yaya mum's : yaya , yang pakai baju puteh , pakai cermin mata hensem .( refering to sayang brother )
yaya : yana ! yana ! , you nak tau aperh my mum ckp ?
yana : aperh ?
yaya : My mum ckp yg baju puteh akai cermin mata hansem .
yana : haahhhahahahahhaha ! *l.o.l*
yaya mum's : kalau kau putos ngn haziq ambek je diktu .
yana & yaya : hahahahaha ! *ketawerh tak stop *
i told sayang , he aslo laughh . hahha !
so i plan to walked to singpost makan samerh & meet my sayangsayang's .
setengah jalan , puseng yaya takderh . okay nevermind . Afterh that continue walking ,
reach bazarh , sayang buy burger & i aslo buy . sayang sombong sia ! nak blanjerh dyerh taknak , ahah !
ngh ungu doang buy kan burger , saw this one girl , sayang peh adeq angkat .
akurh puseng jerh nampak tuh ppm nak hug sayang , but naseb mataey akurh tak pelok .
lau pelok standby dyerh puseng akurh takderh , tuh burger gy makan soang .
akurh abg ke adeq angkat takde pon doang pelok akurh atau akurh pelok dorang . HUMPHH !
since taknak peragai i close one eye & i tols sayang i want meet my friends .
so meet my sayang's while waiting for them buy burger .
salam-ed them , talk jap & walk-ed off due to reasons .
Onl myrakeaisayang & amaliahsayang knows .
Meet sayang back , go eat . irritating sia mataey akurh nenok akurh makans . ish's !
aderh dyerh kate akurh makan cute ? hahah ! aperh daarhs , makan pons cute ke bie ?
after makan , i go meet them back again while sayang go macdonald .
Took tons of photo , gambar pat myrakeaisayang uhrs . i'll get her a.s.a.p !
After all that salam-ed & meet sayang back . Lepak kejaps , meet yayasayang & haziq then off home wih sayang .
Due to sayang restrict time thats why must alek siangs .
Ngh jalan pat paya lebar mrt , saw sayang ex & again , akurh bigit . Mcm mcm pompuan dyerh kenals .
& since we saw that girl , he keep on talking about his ex . Sakit hati okay ? but i have to diam uhrs .
taknak argue with him .
Sent sayang till jurong east and i train-ed to woodland . Try imagine from chuachukang , i want msg sayang & tell him how i feel and i just finish typing when i reach home . 9 page panjang , daa uhr hp ssh nak typee . ambek kau ubat ! haha . takot nak sent , onlone & ask-ed syang not to be angry & all . he say okay , after send chat w sayang , he replyed through msn saying soory & others . sweet mataey akurh , ahah !
continue chatting . main game with sayang ! UNO , yana menang (:
Tengah maen tibetibe sayang senyap , taktau aperh jadyk , so i guest he tdo uhr .
sotsotsot ! takpe raya make sure you mintak maaf ngn i ! * cheecky smilee *
talk to yayasayang & aybeeseped , then after put down , talk to amaliahsayang .
Thanks for temaning alright koang .
My stomach making a noise , ince lapar i called macdonald ! haha . 2.45 am ? haha ! makan , mega macspicy . SEDAP ! pagypagy bute makan tuhh , haha ! yumyum .
After eat , tros tdoe mcm babi ! haha . kecohhh ~
Today .
kemas rumahhhhhhhhhh .
update soon , alright ? bye .

& To all ,

selamat hari raya , maaf zahir & batin .
salah silap harap dimaaf kan & jangan lupa datang rumah !
assalamualaikum .

2009-09-18T08:02:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EQA JEPON !
It's your birthday and I can't be there
But I'll send you a special birthday wish and a little prayer
Have a happy birthdayI hope that all of your birthday wishes come true
May you have a great time today and find happiness in everything you do.
Today , is superb bad day for me .
nenek fainted infront of me & what i willing to do is only cry & my whole body is shivering .
mcm nerhs tak cry , suddenly sia at bustop , the saddest part was , she cant breathe .
i cry & ask her to wakeup . but she dont , i shake her body & at last she wakeup .
thansk to the uncle who carrys her . ambulance came few min timee .
haishhh ! follow-ed to the hospital , first time akurh take ambulancee . best !
haah , ok done .
reach hospital , called aunty office but she's not in , suspose to meet her .
sian uhr makcik akurh . nenek heving her observation & i went met aunty at gombak .
go eat ! laparhhh . ahha . then aunty off to hospital & i cab-ed home .
laterh off to geylang w sayang & friends .
so yea , thats all for todays .

nenek , get well soon . you make me superb worry just now .
b home a.s.a.p alright ? nak raya kans ? haishh .
iloveyou .

i wishh , you will forever be mine , i want everlasting love can baby ?
pleasee ?

2009-09-17T19:40:00.002+08:00
wakeup kinda early today .
sayang called me & make me laugh.
yesterday dyerh tak call ! beh nary angkat bodek laa . musibot kan ? tol tak tol ?
uat baik pandai eh you b ? hahahahaha ! talk to my yayababy , i miss her . alot siul !
you can neverh know , how much i misses her .
since weeks we neverh meet kan b ? if meet must hughug okays ? ok done w that .
aunty called & asked me to tag along w her to westcoast food court .
member dapat gaji , ketok uhr ! hhaa & i aslo ketok her for , money ! hahhaa .
meet sayang at causeway point , before he reach i go pierce back my nosee . sedap siul !
hha . then meet sayang at bns . rindu dyerh dohh . walkwalk around cwp & ask ahdeq lollipop to trn .
after she come walkwalk again , then go smokysmoky .
lepak jap & off to doverh .. took the same train w sayang & ice .
reach jurong he took towards joo koon & i go dover . meet aunty ,
cab-ed to westcoast , bely banyak ois makan ! sedap siot . ahahahah !
after buy , cab-ed back to woodland , inside cab-ed .

yana : jom gy mahligai manis ! gelek sampai pagy , nak ?
aunty : kepale otak kau ! saperh ajar gy dandut ?
yana : minah dandut peh , nak ? kakak blanje , then bak anin pay . * cheecky face*
aunty : kakak , asal makin lamerh kau makin merepek ?
yana : bustard sia ! org toltol .
aunty : * uat muka * malas akurh nak layan kau kak .
yana : alala ! * sad face * kecoh kan ? hahah ! bustard uhr makcik akurh .

alamak ~ reach home , since tak puase ,
i quickly eat my muttonchop , sedap . haha . then , i eat rojak , afer eat rojak , eat satay ,
after eat satay eat nasi & asam pedas . then eat rojak again . banyak knknkn ? boncet siul akurhh . ahhaa. now updating , besok nak gy geylang , nak gy ngn sayang ! nak walkwalk. besok mayb temakan nenek go pasar . tomrrow , im busy . busy w nenek & petang w sayang .
yea ! okuhr , gtg ! byebye .

p/s : eh bie , besok gy petapis jangan mengat eh , pleaseeee .you i punyarhss

baby read this , for you .
I don't know how to tell you
How much I love you
So I'm writing this
To convey my love to you
As brightly as the silver moon shines
Is as bright as I see your smile
As sweet as sugar, and candy too
Baby, I really do love you
As deep as the ocean blue
Is how deep my love is for you
As far as east is from west
Is how long I will love you
I hate it when we are apart
I feel like I can't breathe
You are my air, you are my life
Without you I think I might die
My love for you is deep and true
I need to know if you love me too
How am I supposed to survive?
Without you forever by my side
Iloveyou . muacks !

2009-09-16T13:40:00.004+08:00
yestersday slepy around12 + , talk to mimibaby .
she shares her problem & i do too .
thanks for understanding & thanks for advise's alright ?
sayang never call , causee adrh uhr reason , diktu sikit peraaa . alamak ~
nemind uhr .
wakeup pagy text him & he reepl-ed mcm nak taknak .
Hmms , i donno whats wrong . nemind .
since i want make myself busy , i clean my house , superh clean okay ?
baik lorhhs yanaa . msg sayang , slalu nyerh he reply but now , he dont , sodehh )":
around 3+ uar umah meet fyqa , twiinny & ian . practice danceee & lepaks .
at last sayang msg , happy siul akurhh , ahha !
around 6.45 off home & laterh meeting them again , go get my $ ! haha .
ok uhr , gtg . byebye .

eh jantan ! kau tak perlu msg akurh ckp nak gambar alek semua .
game nyik akurh pons da penah main dohh ! merepek kan kau ?
umor braperh uhr ?
nanty mataey akurh umpe kauu

2009-09-15T18:24:00.004+08:00

hey!
today everything go on okayy .
school was okay , i have my cpa nlevel .
some parts superh susahh . takleh buat siaa & i nearly giveup on doing so . haha !
after school go smokysmokyy , then meet sayang infront of his schoool , kene kacau ngn matrepeks !
puky uhr ! akurh secondary , koang ite manerh peh big sia ? brani belakang ,
akurh walk pass diam , musibot musibot ! nabeycheebye .
around few min times sayang sampai , he turn back and sat " cute uhr dyerh pakai uniform , * laughh *
haha ! nik agy shatu peh musibot . hhaha , musibot yg akurh sayang .
lepak w sayang & cicak .
ni picture tady ngh lepaking . sweet tawue , be jelous people .
his minee .

baby ask me to ehdit & upload this ,
cause he say his cutee .

sweet laa kans kyterh ? tauu (:
, around 1pm accompany sayang home .
at jurong mrt i ask sayang , if can rebon rambot tak , he say no . ):
tapy ttp nak rebon , ttp lawar peh b ! aahahaha !
inside bus , buat kecohh . bie ohh bie , you know i know .
hahaha . reach sayang housee , lepaks . haha ! jangan nak pikiran eh koangs .
since sayang mummy is out for awhilee , left me , sayang & faridd .akurh layan mataey akurrhh setengah mampos ~ koang manerh tauu .
ahah . around 4.45pm sayang sent me till jurong east mrt .
kyterh mengutok orang dalam train , sayang ajar yana menjady jahat . hahah .
reachh jurong , i continue trained all the way to woodland & sayang back to
boonlay . ala , member akai consession mesty uhr , anytime leh naek bus & train .
alamak ~ hahaha .
reach home , text sayang mcm text hantuuuu .
urh call mcm unguu buah durian jatohh . checkcheck dyerhs ngh nenok citerh bosia .
alamak , balak gua bikin gua panas uhr ! ahaha .
ala , lu cuma penyedap gua ja ! hahah , chey b ! fake eh fake . hahha .
ok , reach home ayah say this
ayah : " eh kak ! bill kau da datang , bayarh sendirik "
yana : " braperh ? "
ayah : " tengok sendirik "
yana : * sot face* eh cheebye ! banyak kaperh ! $135"
ayah : " saperh uhr kai out going call ? padan muke . maseh nak pakai line ke nak tukar prepaid ? "
yana : " ehh takpe , sanggop bayar "
ayah : "*laughh out loud * lau tak bayarh , mama tgh menungu tuhh nak kai hp kau .
yana :" eh sedap nye , dyeerh peh boal , manerh leh . alamak ~ * mengamok facee *
ayah : " beh unguu aperh , gy bayar "
yana : " duit raya blom dapat , ala cukai uhr . boleh ? "
ayah : " banyak kau peh cukai , duit computer da tak bayarh ! lepas tuh ader haty suruh aku bayar bill kau yg da melambong ? gy pakai duit raya ! padan muka . * evil laugh *
yana: " *muke sdehh *
complain pat sayang , dyerh ketawerh kan
haishhhh . da biasaaaa .
cheebye kan ?
duit cheer maybe i get on wed / thrusdayy . yea ! cepat uhr . nak sen bodohhh .
ahhahahhahaha . enow ngh mendark .
online tapy tak chat . merepek kan akurh ? malas mau chat , hehe .
now i update & redo my blog 3 times readyy .
tryin find nice blog skin but no havee . nemindd .
i online sayang msn , fuhlemak~ banyak pompan dohhhh .
hot ke mataey akurh ni ? kerh step hot uhr ? ahah .
ok done w that . tomorrow i got dance at woodland & i feel like not going schooool . how eh how ?
see first la ok ? ahah . ohhhyarh not to forget ,
bananacondom ! i want my stuff back & duit yg kau urh akurh bayar bilerh kau naek cab 20bucks , ni citerh lamerh , last year , but since kau da melebeh , akurh bukak balek .
kau nak kau peh barang ? barang akurh lai duluu . ramai siul carek kau . berubah uhr siyul . ahahaha !
ipod kawan kau ilang , fee peh mak peh hp ilang . aperh siul ni ? barangbarang eqajepon pon dyerh nak balek . ishhhhh . please uhr , barang kasek balek uhhkays .
Hmmms , ok now akurh taknak banyak boal pasal bananacondom nyik , bikin darah gua upupup siuls !
but ramai jugak eh blog org aderh gambar & pasal dyerh . HOTHOTHEAT ! haha .
ok cut i out . raya few days moree . tak sabarhh akurhh . sumpah ! haha
nak collection , cheychey . haha . now im missing sayang . hehehe .
want see some conversation in msn thady ? sweet dohhhs .

yanasmalloriginal Casperyantaopunyarhs .♥
i may not b as sweet as your ex . i may not b as good as them . i may not b as respectfull as them . i may not b the same as howww they treat you mayb they treat you best then i . Hmmms im different okay sayang ? & baby how unrespectfull i am , how rude i am im still loving you alright ? i dont want you to get me wrong hereeeeee , i love you alright b ?
casperyanasmallownage
alalalala !
casperyanasmallownage
i love more den i love my ex bie !
casperyanasmallownage
dun worry ..
yanasmalloriginal Casperyantaopunyarhs .♥
(:
casperyanasmallownage
brb bie ..
casperyanasmallownage
nk kemas umh ..
casperyanasmallownage
pape i kol nnt ..
yanasmalloriginal Casperyantaopunyarhs .♥
kkk.
casperyanasmallownage
jg noti2 CB !
yanasmalloriginal Casperyantaopunyarhs .♥
you maky i ? ishhhh !
yanasmalloriginal Casperyantaopunyarhs .♥
okay sayang .

sweet enough ? hehe . sayang you babybabimatrepmonyet !
heheh . jelous la okay peeople ? tell your boyf to be as swet as him alright ? haha .
ok uhhrr , my word piinish ready . lasty baby , i enjoy my day w you .
sayang youuuuuuuuuuu . muacks .
byebye .
assalamualaikum .

2009-09-14T05:28:00.005+08:00
Lets start .
Out w sayang yesterday . yeah ! happy akurhhh .
when geylang , tak ramai sanagt orang siot , never saw my freinds even , like cb kans ? ahaha .
wakeup around 9+ & msg sayang that i can go .
Thenn since cannot sleep maen comp and update below post *look down*
i watch bosia several times & sayang get irritate by that , maaf eh b ? hahaha .
around 1 , yana tertdo ahlek .i did ask sayang to wake me up at 3 but i was the one who called
him & its already 3.15pm . i thought i was late but when i called sayang , he say-ed his still under his blk main crd , aperh lagy , i take my own sweet timeeee .i mandy at 3.30pm & that time sayang call & ask-ed if da siap or blum , i say-ed da , padahal ngh aru bes mandyy . ahah ! a few min later he called again , and tell me da siap , i say ngh siap . that time ngh make up . 15min past , he called again , ni time yana kate da kuar padahal maseh ngh siap . i have to meet sayang at jurong , but since da lambat kan , i take my own sweet time again . yea ! ahhahah . Train-ed to jurong , sayang waited for me & tell me this " train towards pasir ris da 5 terlepas & toward woodlands 7 ke 8 " . lamerh eh ? soorry uhr b , janji tak buat lagi (:
Traain-ed all the way to payalebar , lamerh dohhh .
da reach there . me & sayang make a deal 15 min free time , that means can cuci mata . bah bah bah .
tapi kelakarnya , saya sendiri yang sakit hati . hehe , but i get to cuci mata too what ? so , fair ! nbcb !
bigit siul , sayang cuci mata rabak uhr , rabak gilerhh . But yana tak leh mengamok , pasal deal pehh . so , step gerek jap uhr . pabutohhhh , pabutohhhh . hahah .
walk-ed to joo chiat complex maat sayang , dad & adeq's . && not to forget , farid(sayang's adeq)
kesian dyerh semalm , surangsurang girlf tak ikot , gy buka pat causeway point eh eh ? haha . next time alright ? haha . by the time reachh joo chiat complex , 15min da over but still sayang cuci mataa , arghhh ! tapy paperh pons dyerh yana punyerh siot . hahaha , walkwalk around joo chiat complex then to bazaar , carek sayang peh bajuu ishh ! peh sot , nak yang sachoksachok nyeks . humphs , sabar je uhr yana . walk to singpost for buka , sayang step puasa ! aperhh daa , takot bapak eh b eh ? haha .
after buka walk back to tanjong katong & at last dapat gaks baju yang sayang nak , yeshaa ! happy . tapy yg sdeh nyerh , baju yana ngn sayang , jauh berbeza but blue colour uhrr . haiyaa , takperh uhr . janji aderhh connection & not to forget , farid & girlf red colour , comperm hothotheat eh ? hahahha .
after buy, me & sayang walk-ed first as i have to go home early .
i get to take photoo w b ! hahah , happyhappyhappy * smile widewide*
Trained all the way to woodland , thanks b antaa i .
reach home , mandy , makan & wait-ed for sayang call . Talk to him for a while then put down .
since i got the feeling that he comper paitau lagy , yana tdoe uhr . hahah !
at around 2 am , mama buat kecohh , dyerh gy off aircon , uhhh kau tak boleh tdoe siot ! mengamok akuurh
hahaah ! thats all for yesterday+today morning .
todayy ,
wakeup for sahur , ask-ed sayang to call .
he called . diktuu step sahur siaa ! hahahah , ingat kan nak puasa .
but end up nampak fyqa makan then makan uhr . ahahah ! after school home straight .
Sayang make me bigit , seriously ! sot siul yana .
now badan yana so lemahhh ~ taktau knaperhh .
ehh b ! jng boal pasal break . please ehh ! i hate it okays ?
even its a joke . get it ? ok uhrs .
ok uhrr , my mood swing . byebye !

2009-09-13T09:21:00.004+08:00
aru wakeupppp . bucuk sia yana . ahahahaha .
today off to geylang w boyf . mayb ?
sapesape nampak , tegooo okays ? jng sombong..
otf w sayang tadyk , ngh nenok bosia kacau jerhs dyerh .
tapy takperh uhr , sayang peh pasal , hahahahaha !
ok uhr , im spechlesss ! update soon , bubbye .

p/s ; i learn this words & sentence from that ceritaa .
- balak [ boyfriend ]
- rabak dohhhh .
- penyedap .

miimiibby sayang .
dear , move on .
you see his not worth it for you .
not at all .
you have to move on w/o him .
i know you cn right ?
make it a lesson to be learn , never regret .
im try-ig to understand your situatuon here .
but when it comes to parts , i just cant explain .
sorry if im not giving you much advise as you did .
just remeber , if you turn back im always at the back to push you
forward . im always here . iloveyou .

my bajuu raya (:

2009-09-12T10:18:00.004+08:00
i have change my blog skins.
lawar kan ? tautautau (:
okay let start the shits .
im not out yesterdayy .
i stay at home like a goodgirl do .
haha ! sayang paitao agy eh ! kate nak calll , tuunggu mcm org gilerh sia .
end up yana tertdoo . aperh siul . haha .
yesterday otf w sayang but after he letak member paitau . pehpusat tol laky akuurh !
sot sia yana , but takperh uhr , sayang pehpasal . hummphs .
he say-ed this yesterday " nari b mcm laen je , lovingloving " hahaha . ala , yanasmall peh .
&& dyerh kate yanaa pelik dary ex dyerh yang laen . ahah . mayb dyerh kate yana pelik pasal ,
yana minum susu ? haha , he hate when i drink milk . haha ! cute uhr .
okays now sayang is out py tindek & TAK AJAK ! Tindek surang . ishhhs !
takperh uhrs , da biasa yana .
Todayy , go dance at boonlay .
meet sayang at woodland then trained to boonlay .
dalam train never talk to sayang , step merajok uhr kiterh dua , cute kans ? haha .
sayang tindek kening , sachok laa . ahha ! nakmu kembang yerh b , lau read blog i . ahha .
after dance meet sayang at his place . lepak , nary dyerh kene bully . best la siot ! ahaha .
i laugh due to his friend & his reaction while playing card game . semangat sia satusatuu .
aha ! then around 7+ sayang sent me pat mrt . thanks darlinkk . haha !
reach home mama , tell me this " eh kak , makcik awak pakai baju awak . tady dyerh masok bilik gy bukak gerobok kakak " . tuh part sot siak ! pabutooohh ! baju akurh siyal ! sengket peh puki ! arghhhhhh .
fuck that uhrrr . so now updating blog , baru abes mam burger & maseh tengah laparhh .
after this nak makan lagy & lau tak malas , nak mandyy . ahha ! waiting for sayang call tooo .
&& sayang , maaf ye lau badan merahmerah , hahahha !
updatee soon .byebye .

SAYANG SAMA BOYFRIEND LAAAAA .

2009-09-11T15:46:00.004+08:00
Back for posting (:
meet sayang yesterday pat school dyerh , then off to jurong .
lepak w sayang , cicak & jepon .
around 4.00pm off to stadium as i have something to do w my dance .
pratice & part tuh gereks . Arounddd 6.00pm mandy pat stadium .
sejok siul air , hahah ! after mandyy , go 7eleven buy buka & eat .
sayang come at 7.55pm but i dont realisee . hahah !
half time aru dapat umpe sayang , smokysmoky w him thenn back to stadium
after full time , home straight w sayng , waited for twinng & the rest .
sayang go home .
something happen & i dont even wish to elaborate here .
Thats all for yesterdayy .
takecares.

; not all guys are the same . never judge them by its coverhh .
maybe sayang is different . yea admit that his a matrep . kan sayang kan ?
but not all are the same . && sayang , prove me wrong that you aint the same as others can ?
trust me , iloveyou & no more him . iloveyou .

2009-09-10T10:18:00.001+08:00
off to meet sayang . bye

2009-09-09T14:04:00.004+08:00
Hey .
Im updating my blogg . ectually im spechless now uhhr .
later off to geylang w mama .
Thought of asking sayang to tag along beh dyerh school . nemindd .
boleh yana cuci mata eyhkk ? haha ! fake . mampoas akuurh .
Setia pada one okay ?
today yana puasa , yea ! goodgirl . koang manerh tawue .
sayang tak pecaya yana siaa , sodehh ~
ehh bie , i goodgirl okay ? ahha .
tomorrow meeting sayang then off to bola .
i miss cheer laa , lawan young lion bebeh . Boleh menang pahh ? haha .
kiterh nenok . now msging w sayang , i miss him la .
nak meet , nak hug &&& nak kiss =p
okay uhr , im off . update soon alright ? takecares.

wo ai ni

below post is for sayang .
Read it okay baby ? iloveeyou .

You and me
Were meant to be
In my dreams, and in my heart
We have something that can't be torn apart
Dreaming of you, makes my night worth while
Thinking of you, makes me constantly smile
Something tells me that your the one
Whenever I'm with you, we have so much fun
Having you is the best thing ever
Having you is what i want forever
Til the end of time
You will be mine
I love you baby, your one of a kind
Because your always on my mind.

casper yantao ♥ , yanasmall punyarhh soang (:

2009-09-08T19:18:00.002+08:00
hey .
guest what , im loving bf sia . yea !
setia eh bie , i sowanks ehh ! no 2nd / 3rd/4thh . okays ?
hha ! exams are okayyyy uhrs , haha .
after school , accompany fyqa home & she accompany me home .
train-ed to bishan as fyqa to angmokio .
Meet ex boyfriend , talk to him & guest what , i get to hug & kiss him .
wow , like happy you know . he cryed when he know that i meeting sayang .
sodehh ~ but you deserve it laarhs .Meet mimibaby w exboyfriend .
Talk kejaps & i cry-ed in a sudden . i hug ec boyfriend like veryvery tight you know .
veryveryvery , i tell you .
He sent me & mimibaby to bustop . Hug& kiss him . i know he dont want me to go .
but i have to meet sayang . sorry exboyfriend .
Meet sayang outside school , banyak matrepp , cuci mata kejaps siul . ahah !
mampos sayang tauu '0'
haha ! Lepak w sayang , funfun ! even first timee , i mean second pasal the first time we never talkk.
hahaha ! took train w sayang & mimibabyy , haziq go home first . ishhks .
then stop at admiralty , lepak again jap then home . Thanks eh amin sent i alek
=p . hahhahah ! now ngh ungu sayang peh msg .
thats all , tomorrow off geylang w familyy .

exboyfriend , im more hurt than you . im moving on .
sorry & pleasee dont tell me you regret . takecarees .
now is goodbye . byee .

2009-09-07T17:23:00.005+08:00
i lied to myself .
i lied , i cant denied that iloveyou still & i want you back , but my heart doesnt . how ? )":
you came back to me & say that you love me , you regret .
But the point is you still w onie .
you say-ed you want change & come back to me , but i see nothing .
you say-ed that you love me more but you love her too .
you say-ed you miss me , you ask-ed me to give you a chance & i did .
i told you , i will only come back onces you change .
But it seems that you really wanna me back that fast . whyy ?
cause onie doesnt want you ? Haishh .
i now understands her , cause once you cant get me you will go to her ,
when you cant get her , you will come to me . whats all this ?
she may not understand what im tryin say her , but one day she will realise .
you hurt me enough , how long must i suffer ?
i tryed going on w others , but i cant .
when i receive your mcg todayy , i called you & i heard you crying .
you say-ed you cant see me w others ? then me ? see you w oniee ?
four times you did this to me . how can i ever stand the pain ?
you sayes now you have forgiven me , why ? cause now then you realisee .haishh
im speechles , i will never fall for your words , but the way you retuen back to me , idk .
you called me baby , you called me sayang , but is there really love behind those words ?
Dont hurt neither me nor oniee anymore , we too have feelings .

to onieadeqkuching ;
if you're reading my blog , i want to apologise for all that happens . Now then i realise something .
i hope after reading this . you realise it too . so tell me , what for me are enemies when we know what is happening .i hope , i get to meet you soon . But if i dont & if he chooses you , take good care of him .
Tell him to forget me .Tell him to move on w you . Give him your full love , give him everything that you havee . Dear , if he plays around w our heart this time , i swear , i not going to come back to him even im loving him . if you want him , take him . i dont mindd alright ? no use if im w him but he cant move on w me .
i hope this will end soon . i wishhh . takecaree lovee .

i dont want this to end , but i have too .
should i believe in your iloveyou ?

i after a long post , after a long talk , after a long thinking ,
i've made my decisionn .
i will go on w my casperbaby , i wont hurt him .
i will try loving him . i will try to open my heart for him .
I will try going on w/o _____ . i know i cant , i'll try .
i will start anew , he will be my past but not my present or future .
i will just make it as i know him from a dream .
i will try but i know , its hard .
casperbaby , please guide me through ,
i need your guidence , i need you care & your lovee .
spent time w me more alright ?
cause you are going on 22/10/2009 .
&& i dont even want to think about that datee .
iloveyou okay sayang ? muacks !

for my hosnisayang ,
you were there before but not now .
imy soooo muchh , but i think i really have to move on now .
no point i stay , no point . you go on kays ?
im sorry & dont cry babyyy .
no matter what , you are always in my heart .
trust me , we will be bacck , but it take times .
i wishh our love were strong . )":
i sayang you .
soory & goodbye .

i wishh im going the right pathh .

2009-09-06T16:35:00.003+08:00
hello .
yana mendak , betolbetol peh mendarks .
haha .
sooo , i sleep at 5.30am , otf ngn casper ♥ .
haha , gerek peh boal ngn dyerhs . Thanks okay casper ♥ .
mimibaby called & talk to her .
i wakeupppp early , 2pm ? siang kans ? haha ! due to casper ♥ call & msg .
seboks .
i wan meet mimibabyy ♥ , i miss her like fucking muuchs . you knows ?
okk uhrs , now nk otf w casper♥ , gtg ! byee .

should i try to give my heart to others ?
should i give a try ?
should i ? should i or should i not ?

; i miss exboyfriend , but theres no useeee .

2009-09-05T14:35:00.004+08:00
Thanks for the bday wishes (:
1sT - Mimiibaby , 2nd - rasul, 3rd - sms , sayang 4th - _______ [asking for a breakup , wow ! ]
&& the rest , yana lupe . maaf !
hehe . So it ectually sucks la yesterdayy .
TOTALLY ! wakeup , im crying like bahyfbwcifucksgfielcgdcj .
Then go school late , school bapak akuu .
Reach school , i was silent , everyone is wishing me happy bday &
what i did was . " thanks you , smile " .
besar , twinny , ian , hady , ju & wan were asking what heppen between me & _______ .
i keep myself silent . im too weak to answer all that .
I talk to ahdysotsot in class & thanks for listening , after all that i feel okay , 1% jerhs .
So try to put a smile on me , fake one . haishh ! Hmms , but at the ending , i guest no uhr .
kene sabo dngn paperh ball , tak mcm siaks ? haha ! okay , tuh part tak fake smile . lepak kejap & homee .
Reach home & again i cryed cause of ayah & mama , then called _____ i cryed again .
Then we meet at bishan , saw him my eyes was like , beair mcm waterfall . we fight . i slap , tumbok & maki him .
cause toltol da takleh tahan after i found out something , ____ did that 4 times okay ? how hurt tell me ?
sampai yana termaki " pukimak " i was like not thinking about that . ended up he cry-ed . i say sorry .
Talk to him & called that girl friend saying that i let him go this time . i cry like no one bussiness sia .
i felt like my heart stop beating & my mind was blank , yes blank & stop . try imagine ?
i dont know what i talk , and what i know , i told him everything .after my talk , i feel like no point ready im still there sedangkan he dont even caree , i give him one last kiss & hug thenn , i walk & never turn back . )":
meet rara & cityhall , then meet yaya , aziq , junjun & casper at payalebar . saw ayuni , she's joining us , i was like happy , get hug ! yea ! So meet the rest something happen , swayyyy -___-
Then after buka i join them back as mama go walkwalk w adeq . i saw them ! yesyes ! them . happy , i kiss liya & hug eqa , i miss them ! Thanks for the present ayerh lovee ?
Go outside singpost & smoke , tuh part fun ! ahah , pic taken &&&& i saw akid ! yea , hapy siul . haha
i smile yesyesyes , i smile ! haha . But when i saw full moon i fall again )": .
Walked to bazar i saw mantiago , i told him bout ______ quickly i called _____& tell him what i heard .
ectually im not that bad nak rosak kan kaong dua , but i cant bare see ____ kene bustard by you like again .
Sot kejap siul yana dengar . i fall again . haishh , walk w no mood , ended up mam call say she want to go homo , salam-ed & myrakeai follow me . she asked me to called ____ and bbl baikbaik , so , i did . done !
reach home , talk to mimibaby & ________ . he really make his decison . boleh uat aperh kan ?
he ask me to called him again , since yana tetdo , i called him aroung 2am , talk kejap & i didnt cry . ahah ! i just go on w the flow bebeh . so after talking , NOT SINGLE TEARS DROP ! but my heart is pain , in pain .
i cant sleep . sodehh ~
i try to go in lalaland , wakeup aroud 2+ then when i think of him , im not hurt that muchh & i get this feeling that , my heart has closee . (:
i move onn ! yea ! called yayasayang & she told me casper want my num , tunggu aper agy ? single kan , go uhrs . ahah ! kecohhhh ~
now mcging casper & ny heart doesnt want to mcg _______ anymoreeeeee .
its the end (:

Thanks to , mimibaby{♥} , yaya & haziq {♥} , liyababy {♥} , ayushortie{♥} , twinnysayang{♥} , fyqabhabbygerl{♥} , ian black{♥} , ahdysotsot {♥} , apek{♥} , wawan{♥} , linasayang{♥} , casper{♥} , junjun{♥} , myrakeai{♥} , neesya nonet{♥} , rara yeon {♥} , sms{♥} , san{♥} , yesterday peeps {♥} & msn friend {♥} . thanks you for the advise . im moving on now w/o him . im strong & yeaa , im promise no more fake smile okayy ?

liyababy{♥} blog , hehe ! ily laarh baby . dont worry i wont end our friendship .
iloveyouu .
mimibaby{♥} .
heyy , thanks for everythimg lovee . im strong & i promise to move on , i wont turn back alright ?
he no more in me yeahh . guys re guys .hehe , iloveyour more girlfriend .
fyqa & twinny {♥} .
Thanks for the suport , thanks for always being there for me .
koang the best , make me movee on , thanks ! i just dunno how im going to repay all this .
for you guys relationship , be strong & if i cann face it why not you .
iloveyou both .

i thoought of not contacting him anymoree , but he called me due to reason , eh da bagos aku mintak maaf !
siyal tols , ishh . since he called & we fight . i never cry siaa , happy . hahha . after he put down , i msg him this & this is my last msg . i wont be texting him again . aku bukan puki miskin okay ? i dont need you laarhs .
This was my last msg to him .
dont turn back & move on .
never msg me that you regret .
delete my number & dont need to reply my msg .
takecare , bye !
he reply-ed .
Tkmo la mcm gni .. takkn i uat eu mcm gni .. nak benci nan i .. i tkd niat nak mcm gtu ..
i will txt eu again ..
lw eu tknk takpe .. bye .. tc ..

i never reply .
takde niat ? haah ! da banyak kalay sia kau uat aku ! aku patong pe boy ?
sedap kene sepak , tumbok & maki ngn aku ? sedaps kan ?
takank maaf kan aku ? eh tak pasal uhr , you deserve it la !
haha . im not going to look back , im going to the path that is right , i'll show you im strong to face all this & im strong to go on w/o youu .
you dont have to regret , you dont have to come back , i dont need you .
we wont be back . i hate you okay ? Thanks yaarh . i just cant love you back ,
everything has ended . so , you can move onn , you num i have deleted , our pic ? no moree .
our memories ? i have let it go .
ahhaha ! too late , you say-ed you have forgiven me , but you dont .haha !
you lied siaa . im not coming back & please ehh , stop msging me babe . i hate you & i reapet , i hate you !
im moving on okayy ? puas ? tapy jng pulak aku ngn jantan laen pat uar kau nanges okayy ? haha .
all the best w her & i reapet , DONT REGRET & I HATE YOU ! thanks ______ . you're still remembered .
hehehe , byee .

may peace upon you .

2009-09-03T12:29:00.006+08:00

Todayy , i never attend school . (:
yea ! besok birthdayyy , sweet 16 .
nak chocolate cakee la )":
saperh boleh buy kan ? hhaha . tak maluu eh yana .
&& nak meet sayang sayang yana besok ,okays ?
especiallyy , my punggolians & yayasayang (:
thanks for coming back singapore just to meet me besok .
iloveyou sayang . i must have fun besokk .
&& sorry for this few days post i have been talking about my love life .
This is the only place i get to tell everything . Sorry readers .

firstly thank to my liyababyyy for caring .
i promise alright sayang to be strong ?
i will be happy , guys are guys & tell you what ,
i have given up on him , so i let him be .
hehehe , meet besok okay sayang ? iloveyouu .

I dont wish to talk about ____ again , but haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ,
he hurt me again , so like i say im going on w the choice i choose & i think its
the right path that im going too , im not going to regret .
we go our own separate ways .
sorry that i call you w the words that hurts you ,
but i hold more hurt okayy ?
Thanks for everything , yes eyerything .
thanks for making this as my bday present .
Thanks for hurting me .
&& againn , thanks for everything .
takecaree & goodbye boy .
♥ , yanasmall .

im strong , i have to be strong even im not .
i wish i never know you .
i wish i never love you .
i wish i never need you .
i wish i never feel the hurt that you gave me .
i wish , i wish , i wish you dont exsit .)":
i need to be strong , yes .
i really need to be strong .
you dont deserve my LOVE
you dont deserve my CARE
you dont deserve my TEARS
you dont deserve ME
I DONT NEED YOU !!!
I HATE YOUU !!! YES I HATE YOUU !!
AKU BENCI KAUU !

im just wondering why am i always the one
who need to be strong .
why am i the one who need to facee all this alone ?
whywhywhy ?
i should move on , but i cant .
how ?
what if i say , i need that someone who i waited for 1yr2monthh ?)":
is it too late for me to be back w you ?
haishh.
da larhh , all love are the samee .
yes all & guys are guys.
byee .

2009-09-02T05:01:00.002+08:00

&& HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY SAYANG , ILOVEYOU .
da besar nakmu notyynoty ok babyy ?
sorry eh , akak tak kasek present , kasek kiss & hug da bolehh .
Enjoyy (:

Time checked , 5.05 , pagy eh ?
takot tdoe terlajak then cannot wwakeup , how ? hha .
i dont wish to talk about yesterday , it hurts me so much , only god knows .
i was like calling people & asking for their opinion if they are in my shoes .
But most of all , thanks to my mimibaby , she's always there for me , through up and downs .
she ask-ed me to read her blog , she wrote this .
how sweet kan ? be jelous , she my bestgirlloveeee .

To Yanababy,
Im so sad to hear about whats happening in your life.
whatever it is be strong alright !
im here for youuu .
everything happen has its own reason,
may it be bad or good,
you must learn how to endure with it.
make the right decision for yourself.
Never regret after you have done it alright.
i will support all your decisionns .
imissyouu, girlfrienddd~
And i dont wish to see my gf suffer anymore.
i want you be happy and smile always.
i want to see you and him happy like last time.
STOP THE FIGHT and START the HAPPY DAYS ~

To Mimibaby ,
Thanks for your advise & everything .
yes , you're right , everything happens for a reason .
even im not that strong to face all of this obsticle ,
but i have too . i still remember you told me this ,
" never regret of what you have done , make it a lesson . "
im not regretting it , but im just sad of what is hapening .
i have made my decision , even i dun want to .
maybe this is the right thing & im going to the right path , maybe ?
let see alright ?
whatever it is , im still strong even im coping & suffering it alone without him knowing .
im strong )";
& i miss you too , i love you .

I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return?
A broken heart.
I have given you my heart, and you stomp on it like a doormat.
I have given you my youth and you took advantage of my un-experienced heart and played with my emotions.
I gave you all the trust, but you misused it.
I gave you the benefit of the doubt, and you proved everyone right.
I gave you my life and you killed me day by day.
I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece, So I no longer love you.
I want to loose my memory so I no longer think of you.I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you.
I want to cry but I no longer have any more tears to fall down my sad lonely face.
I want to sleep but my dreams haunt me with you in them.
I can’t seem to find a way out. What do I do?
I don’t want anyone to see this not even you.
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop this misery?
How do solve this mystery?
I can’t seem to find anyone to make feel the way you do,
The way you look at me, the way you say my name, the sound of your voice when you tell me that you care.
I love you so much I think I’m going to die from this pain that haunts day and night.
How can forget you?
If the only love I know is you.
How can I move on?
If life is not the same with out you.
I want to brake free and move on but I think I’ll be doing something wrong.
I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.
Tears of a broken heart .

p/s ;
im not that strong anymoree .
im not the yana like what i use to .
i cant handle everything on my own anymoree .
i suffer enough & i had enoughhh .
The main thing is , guys are guys .
Noting can change them . )":